DID Just life with DID

HealingMama

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I don't think this exists. Every person with DID is different. And yes, there are "criteria" to meet for an official diagnosis, but I have come to believe the diagnosis doesn't matter at all. It's how I feel and what I experience and what I do with all of that.

This is so common.
There may not be a picture perfect version of a system. You're correct. I know that I have felt like I could not rightfully claim any space in these types of communities because my experiences didn't sound "valid" compared to full amnesia/time loss, etc. I don't fit very well in CPTSD communities and don't fit in the DID world either. I have wondered about diagnosis mostly because I am so worried I'm just making it all up as a way to like, avoid responsibility or something. Or to be "special" like PTSD isn't special enough so I need something else. But I am trying to move away from thinking like that, because it's pretty invalidating to my inner family regardless of how differentiated they are (or not).
 

HealingMama

Sponsor
Hi, @HealingMama . You're experiences sound a lot like mine! It took me a long time to accept the importance of my parts and the fractures in my personality, even though I was highly functional in life and didn't have amnesia/time loss.
Thank you @Wendell_R same, in most situations I am highly functional but that is because I steamroll the parts of me that cannot function so well and I am trying to make some space for them now.
 

Sideways

Moderator
I think it's very easy to jump the gun with DID, particularly if you start working with 'parts' in therapy.

Having 'parts' to your personality is something a huge number of people relate to: the serious and professional part of them that goes to work, the thrill-seeking, fun-loving part of them that goes on a roller coaster, the erotic and sensual part that goes on a romantic date, the aggressive part that rages at the steering wheel when they get cut off in traffic...

Personality parts are also synonymous with other mental health disorders, even outside the dissociative spectrum. BPD is an example that springs to mind.

One of the isolating things for me about having DID is that much of my life, my past, my current day to day, I don't remember (at all - complete blank, not aware even aware there's something I don't remember) I can't access at all unless I get contact with the part that was fronting at the time. I can't just know, with confidence, who I am, what I've been doing, significant things that may have occurred that day...

That means having great communication with my parts. Which definitely isn't something I always have.

It's incredibly isolating to have this disorder that a lot of people think they understand because it's portrayed in films so often, or because they relate, on a personal, everyday level, to the experience of having distinct 'parts' of their personality.

It ain't all that. It sucks as a disorder, tbh. I love (love love) that so many people find addressing different parts of their personality, even just identifying different parts of their personality that can be worked with, independently, really helpful to their recovery process.

I don't think that necessarily means jumping on board the DID train is going to be helpful or accurate. It's a disorder that is best teased out slowly, over time (7 years of therapy being the average to reach a conclusive diagnosis).

So take it slowly, and be comfortable with where you are right now, particularly if it's helping you. Not everything needs pathologising.
 

StillPen

Confident
One of the isolating things for me about having DID is that much of my life, my past, my current day to day, I don't remember (at all - complete blank, not aware even aware there's something I don't remember) I can't access at all unless I get contact with the part that was fronting at the time. I can't just know, with confidence, who I am, what I've been doing, significant things that may have occurred that day...

This!! This is what caused my search for a diagnosis that took 10 years. I switch so often that to get back to the part that actually remembers what they thought, said, did, is near impossible. I read on this forum things like 'memory transfer' and 'inner communication' that helps...still working on both. I have a part that throws up pics in my mind to help me remember things (if that makes any sense), I suppose one can call that a form of communication. I'm also getting more in touch with who is 'present', but not in front, vs. a part that is very far in back who wouldn't have clue what is going on in the external world if 'thrown' to the front. Little, tiny, steps of getting to know how my DID works. Progress, I suppose. I use to think all the voices in my head were my own 'self talk', now I'm starting to differentiate (a little) who is saying what to who...
 
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