Other Kidnapped, Returned And Alone

[AndreaMK]

When I was 13 I was taken but 2 guys (in a van no less-insert lost dog or free candy line here), they shot me up with something to drug me, took me to a house and the two took turns. After they were done, they took me back. I've been abused by one person or another for 6 years after that but this assault in-particular still gives me the most trauma.
A big reason is because I feel so unbelievably alone. I have friends who are survivors of rape and abuse. But when a child gets abducted they end up on a milk carton, not back in their own bed the next morning.
Whenever I'm in a circle of survivors it always gets brought up how that shit hardly ever happens. That 90% of the time its by someone known and trusted to the victim. Well yes, true. I've been in those situations as well. But because what you hear about in the news is the stranger danger, Jaycee Dugard cases, people dismiss them in real life because "it doesn't happen a lot". But it happened. The aspect of the kidnapping in my case is one of the most difficult to deal with and I have no one to share my pain and relate to on that level nor the confusion of not turning into a 20/20 Special.

So please if there is anyone out there with a similar experience.. I'm with you. I see you. And please let me know you exist..

 

[Ronda Jenkins]

When I was 13 I was taken but 2 guys (in a van no less-insert lost dog or free candy line here), they...

I'm so sorry you experienced that. I suffered a similar experience at 13. I was sold to 2 men by a close family friend. I was held in a motel room until they were tired of raping me. Ive also been basically pimped out at 15. (I just figured that out last year during treatment) I was so naive... I really thought I had an older boyfriend that was finding places for me to stay. He didn't know that his friends were beating and raping me. SMH. I exist. You're not alone!

 

[Riot]

@AndreaMK, I was 7 or 8, and it wasn't someone close to me. I wasn't kidnapped, but I was trapped. You're not alone.

 

[AndreaMK]

I'm so sorry you experienced that. I suffered a similar experience at 13. I was sold to 2 men by...

Thank you! I'm really sorry you had to experience that as well.

 

[Fadeaway]

My heart goes out to you. I have had experiances with kidnaping but I would rather not go into any more detail due to privacy concerns. Media didn't pick it up but enough people know...bleck. That said I have learned that the cases that get attention are the cases that involve families with money. I just learned recently of a case that happened in During the same time as the Elizabeth Smart case here in SLC. The difference between the two cases was that the parents of the other missing girl were poor and living with friends. The other girl was found dead. For all the attention that the Elizabeth Smart case recived, I hadn't even heard about this case until a friend who grew up in the same neigborhood told me.

So yes, I belive it happens why more than people know, and most of the time the media will only pick it up if the story is a money maker.

You are not alone here. While it helps ot have people who can relate to our stories of trauma, one thing everyone here can relate to is the aftermath of trauma. It sucks and it is hard to cope with life post truama but there is a wealth of information here to help you on your journy to healing.

 

[joeylittle]

I was kidnapped and then returned by the kidnapper. I believe I was gone for 6 days. There was a lot of rape, etc. I was made to phone home, and happened to have no real rules enforced on me (by parents) anyway, so my mother just believed the lie. To this day I am not sure why he gave me back, because he could have killed me. And often seemed like he wanted to. He had some friends a few times but otherwise it was just him and me.

I had just turned 13 a few weeks before. It was obvious something had happened to me, when I was returned home. But it was not in the nature of my parents relationship with me for them to help me. My mother asked if I wanted to see a doctor. I said no. That was that.

It is such a strange thing to live through, and i agree - the kidnapping aspect all on its own is very strange/challenging.

Did you have any indication from them whether you were ever going to be let go?

You aren't alone, @AndreaMK. Thank you for posting. I tend to feel kind of alone too.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

please let me know you exist..

I exist. I wasnt technically kidnapped and due to that a lot of issues I do and did have no one gets, such as Stolkholm advised by my therapist.

I was being held captive, my step dad & mom headed a cult and I experienced sadisic ritual sexual torture, was made to do the unthinkable, and programmed that has taken 8 years to break through (not unprogram, just break through).

No one in my real world believes me but my therapist. Most dont "get it". Most even abuse survivors dont get it. I have no friends, no family, no one. I am completely alone. I understand how that feels. Im so sorry about what happened to you! I believe you and I am here! :hug:

 

[Heather j]

You are not alone.... I was beginning to think im the one alone. Noone believes me except maybe two people... My friends and family are frustrating me with their disbelief and mockery they make of me when my back is turned. The police tried putting a mental hygiene warrant on me. What happened....well making a long story short... My ex got into a game he knew nothing about. He decided to sell meth and somehow made many new friends who eventually got him in so deep that he was owing a huge debt and being threatened. We were not together during this time period as i left sept 10th 2016... I moved away and started moving on with my life until Jan 29, 2017 i came to my hometown to visit family. My ex got word that i was visiting and he came to talk to me pleading for help with fear in his eyes and voice. I figured he was just on drugs and hallucinating or paranoia grabbed his mind... So i decided to see what the fuss was about and go to his house for an evening to try to get to the bottom of it and help him if possible. Days and then weeks went by... Him peeking thru window shades for hours on end and it was monotonous and rediculous. I started taking pictures of everything he was pointing out through the wibdow so i could prove to him that noone was messing with him ... Out of 1506 pictures, about 60 actually had caught my attention. There was a group of people lurking night after night tormenting his mind and banging on the house...even crawling on the roof with assault rifles! Mind you... The town is as small as small gets with a population of roughly could not believe what i was witnessing. I called 911 and it turned to a nightmare because the cops tried to put a mental hygeine on ME, saying i hallucinate...wtf?! Anyways... The doctor and two ladies from the psych analysis unit and the prosecuter made the cops uncuff me and let me go after viewing the pics and videos i took. I was told not to ever call 911 again saing people were there outside with guns or id go for a ride to the nuthouse and id be lucky if i ever got out. Needless to say i was mouthy and being a redhead u can imagine how i told the asshole what i thought of his cockiness and authority he gloated of and abused. I went to confront my ex and ask what he did and who he pissed off. He never did buck up and level with me...so i left his drama and moved on March 6, 2017. He begged and pleaded and played the boohoo bullshit that he was afraid and please please pleased me til i went back to try ti talk to him into going to rehab and leveling with me about what these people wanted so badly from him. This was April 20, 2017 late at night. He woke up the next morning paranoid and bitching because i was prying for answers. I started walking from his house to my moms which it was about a 5-6 mile hike. I rested on a guardrail about every half mile and up pulls some trucks that are company owned by traffic control people in the oil field biz. Anyways... I was forced into a truck by a man with a long white beard and five trucks follwed to the next town and went to a house with another huge scary man sitting at a table. They put me in a gold van and when i tried to refuse i was threatened and told they would make sure id never be found. Said i was dwad and didnt know it yet. They were taking me out 2 1/2 hrs of backroad driving as they contemplated what to do with me after they stopped to show me where my friends body had been dumped a couple weeks prior. They decided to take me to a so called party with new friends and let them help decide. When i walked inside... The people sitting around the table were the ones in my pics and videos. They laughed and poked fun. I knew what was going on and the danger i was in quickly. I began to pretend to be dumb of the situation and acted happy to be there until i could wrap my mind around what they were doing and figure out their intwntions. For 3 weeks nearly... I had no communication means and had no clue where i was. I began cleaning for them in hopes to build repor and pretended i didnt catch on to their game. They threatened me and my family if i chose to run. Yet intimidated me and taunted me as if they dared me to run. So much physical abuse and mentally controlling scenerios. I tried escaping on 4 occasions. Each time i was punished. Driven to well pad at 230am. Theatened by three native American sons and two were from prison murder charges... One was a hyped up evil kid who called his moon phase game a chase with his elkhound. They said sone run some call cops some cry but most die. They dared me to run after saying my daughter was shot in the head and dead because i tried to escape by calling an emt over a panic attack while at their boss ladys home where they made me clean ... I knew the panicattack was coming but also my sugar was out of whack. The men were gone and i took advantave of the sugar meter reading 504 on mistake. Emt came and i left in the ambulance. By the time i fot to the hospital. They big man named moose was already beside the exit door and glaring those eyes at me. I knew therw was noway of escaping him. Later i was voted on and they decided on taking me upstate to trade me for a dodge charger or harley. Moose decided he wanted to keep me and they gathered for a vote. He fot to keep me. He tried making me wear a midevil type dress as they were making plans for a huge pigroast and made a pentagramlike bench around foundation stones they called an offering table. I threw a fit... Stood up for myself and tikd them all i was sick and tired of their scenerios and intimidations and lies n threats. I would stand up to them and die for what i believed it. Told them f*ck off and make my dayand it wont be fun for them cuz i aint running. Also told them id cut their akeelies twndins with bolt cutters if they fwll asleep. They took the clothes frim my body and said i was going to be hung in a barn naked and wont be found for months. Thirty thirty shotgun to my mouth and i hit it away and ran. I made it out of there with help from one of them. July 4th,2017... To this day they keep tormenting and finding me and now contaxting my mom. Noone believes me except the family of my friend whos body was dumped..... I found her jeans and necklace. This houseful of crweps had chased and caught 7 of us so far and a coupke did not live. Cops are not willing to liaten. They the group thinks they have power. They said so many things over the time i was there that when i researched their bullshit...i found the worship odin and another group i wont mention out of fear that my big moyth will cause things to get worse. So much more to this story but i cant... Honey youre not alone. I need to know if theres anyone else and how can we stop this. .. Lots of live and understanding...heather j

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