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Knee Replacement Surgery

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NH,

I apologize for having appeared to have left your side through all of this. I assure you that I have NOT.

I am very sick, and now spending more time in the bathroom than in my bed. Ugh! and Yuck! Even ice cream is not my friend right now.

And besides that, I had something disturbing happen on here and spent much time trying to handle it appropriately and with do respect. But it caused me much stress when my body least needed it. And I am only conveying this so that you may truly believe me.

As for what has been going on with you, I see the strong you continuing to fight to get to the other side. And the tired/in pain you needing to let all your emotions out in a safe place. That is wonderful and I hope you will continue to use this thread and us to help you attain your goal.

I am terribly sorry that at this moment you feel as if this ordeal and it's future rewards are not worth the price you have to pay (in all that you struggle with) each day. I hope that one day, fairly soon, that that opinion will change, but you need to see the benefits first. So until then do what you need to do to keep healing and improving.

I was also disturbed, but unfortunately not surprised, by the out of network coverage issues. Your initial procedure needed to be authorized by your insurance so I think some issue must have popped up with this second proposed procedure.

Likely some procedural code justifying medical necessity was left off. I know this is the last thing you need, but I hope 1) that it will get taken care of by your doctor and 2) that you do not let yourself use it as a way of running away from that second unwanted procedure.

Sorry if this sounds rushed or not quite like me, it is only because I am having a very off day myself. Hope you can forgive me. And know in your heart that I am here, caring, empathizing, and encouraging you to see this thing through.

It kind of feels like you are in the middle of the forrest and the road back to where you started may be clearly marked by your past travels, but is it the most direct or beneficial way out at this point? Only you can decide that for yourself and know that we will support you in whatever you choose!

Huge Hugs from my heart to yours,
Alex
 
Alex,

I feel that I have not been able to be there for you and others the way I would like to be. I try to stay positive and small improvement is still improvement. I am still many degrees away from where I was pre op. My pain level is increasing and I am not sure why. I again went into PT in tears. They must think I am a major loser crybaby. Today we achieved 72% so yes painful progress but progress.

My mother and brother are trying to push me to work and I had a huge blowout during my frantic calls to the ins with my brother. I no longer care about my job even though I need one. It would be very beneficial if he would fire me while out on medical orders. It would give me a case. The fact that my family is so not supportive but actually harmful to my recovery does not help anything.

I also really need to let go of all the emotional mess that is going on. I'm not sure what the surgery activated? It seems like the cry of an abandoned baby that is hurt and hungry and longing for care. It is so raw and painful. I wish, I dream, and I hope for less pain or no pain ASAP. That goes for you too.

Alex, sending you well wishes....

Thank you and I know you have not abandoned ship:hug:
 
My mother and brother are trying to push me to work

Oh darling ((((NH)))), please excuse the language, but BOLLOCKS to them. What matters here is you. You and your recovery.

I'm in a different continent and even I can see that you are not ready for work. Ignore them and concentrate on yourself.

KP, is champing at the bit, let me at them :devilish::mad:
 
It seems like the cry of an abandoned baby that is hurt and hungry and longing for care. It is so raw and painful.

You found so very suitable words for my own "default setting"... If your pain is like mine has been several times in life in that respect then I understand the urgency, the depth and the desperateness. Which has me sit here and not knowing what to write because there really isn't anything to say that would help.

I'll stick with: you're not alone and - I dare say "we" - love you and care the way we can right who and where we are.
 
I agree with KP here NH, ignore the Mafia, you are so not ready for work yet.

I wouldn't worry about the crying thing. When I was in hospital I was the only one who had her partner with her and the only one with a teddy. I felt like such a child! But as far as I know, they didn't have PTSD. I had to acknowledge that I perhaps needed more help to get through it than most.

I was proud of myself and so should you be, you have done so well just to get this far and you are making progress.

If I had my millions I'd fly over and give you a proper hug but all I can do now is send you one of these.

((((((((((((Nighthawlk)))))))))))) :hug: x
 
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