Little Things I Do, As They Occur, To Get Back On Track

[goingonhope]

Well I got out tonight with a couple friends and really socialized, and this was all good.

Have been many weeks without any medicine and feeling all the better for it; Though if or when I need it I'll take it before suffering terribly for too long, as family needs me.

Thanks to some friends and the God-given strength to reach out for help when obsessed with a drink some wks. back, I got through this in good shape.

Have been outside in the yard working and my strength and dreams for our landscape design is in progress and has greatly improved and is returning.

The self-pity and depression that was leading me towards likely drinking has mostly reversed.

Appt.'s are set and in place for my eyes, just not sure what medical option to select come my next appt.

Had therapy today and will again on Friday, and this has been most helpful because the therapist's are very good and there is no self-created obstacles in my way with me being openly honest and receiving help; Proud of myself for this and so especially thankful to God.

Have been practicing much acceptance of things that are beyond my control, yet mindful of not being a doormat, or treated terribly unreasonable.

Have been rising above volatility and intend to keep doing so; And, when it's my time to leave this earth I'll know I gave everything my best efforts and all simultaneously.

Am conscious of my reality that I desire to love even when not loved in return and working towards correcting a faulty mindset that had taken shape after too many an unjust hurt.

Have other things in mind that I really need to practice, like eating well again, enjoying my kids to the utmost, making life easier for my husband yet without going overboard, (smiles), plus getting plenty of exercize and oh' and in addition to that is a list of must do's and want to do's.

So with these decisions and present realities I am heading forward once again, while taking a break from the forum, all in my continuing efforts to get back on track, perhaps even remain there, ...on track!

Luv you all' ...and wish you Well!

Hope

 

[goingonhope]

Well I'm back on track.

Just now read the sticky reminder, reminding us that this forum is for significant accomplishments, though I know some of the things I've mentioned here in the last few months do not seem significant, like picking up sticks outside, omg they were significant then in the state of being and mind I was then in. However, having read the sticky tonight, ...and I needed that reminder, I will put only bigger and more significant things here in the future. And, the good news here tonight is I have in the last weeks accomplished a great deal of hard work and many important and hard things; In fact, I'm still working hard and yet still resting, eating good and outside with good exercise.

I have others to be grateful to for being supportive of me and I'm thankful for some good therapy as well.

Anyhow, I am truly accomplishing and experiencing so much daily, I don't have to be accomplishing things to be happy, however I am certainly happy when fully productive and making important decisions and getting must do's, as well as, want to do's, done.

There is one thing made up of several things on my must do list to be completed; I will be busy working on it all in the coming days, weeks and months.

And, will be thinking of all you guys here with my best for us all.