Lori Meade
New Here
I have been in my own prison for over 5 days. Shades pulled, deadbolt locked, everyone kicked out of my sight. It takes the slightest thing to make my PTSD go into a frenzy. I have no family left (I have a son but he isn;t around much) barely any friends (most moved away) and a boyfriend who just doesn't get this PTSD jazz. He takes it personal. I have had 6 trauma experiences happen to me. I am haunted everyday. I can barely function. Some days are good but most are not. I have been in therapy for 3 months now and feel like I am standing still. I have no support system and due to this PTSD I am unemployed. I do work as a musician and we are booked alot. Music use to be therapy for me but due to my PTSD it is making it difficult. My boyfriend is making it difficult. I don't drive and I am in this house all the time. I feel awful daily, bones ache, tired, elevated smoking. I am new to thins forum and I guess I am looking for compassion and understanding since I have nobody. I feel so alone. By the way my name is Lori. It is nice to meet you all.