Long Day(s)

[abbynormal1929]

Hello,

I've recently started working part time evenings, and my my mind doesn't do so well when left to it's own devices home all day. I've only been on this site a couple of times now, but I'd love to chat or thread back and forth, or whatever works for people. I'm pretty isolated in general too...

 

[EveHarrington]

Have you visited chat? Sometimes it can be pretty empty, unfortunately:( Threads are good because they give people a chance to respond when they are able to.

 

[abbynormal1929]

Yeah I'll give both a try:)

 

[EmmaOwl]

my my mind doesn't do so well when left to it's own devices home all day. ...I'm pretty isolated in general too...

Me too, Abby. In fact, I just texted my therapist to ask him, if he thinks it's helpful or hurtful for me to spend afternoons and evenings going through this site. (mornings, I sleep - theoretically). I spent a long time yesterday, and am doing the same today.
I'm disabled, I don't currently have a job, I'm now living with my parents in a suburb rather than in a city on my own.... It is not ideal for me and I am having trouble working around these issues. I have to drive to get anywhere, but I'm scared of getting lost or accidents or broken down.... Mostly lost but the other stuff too.
So I'm not sure how a back and forth "conversation" would work on this message board, as I am fairly new to posting also. But I'd like to chat back and forth.
BUT ... what's generally on your mind? Last night I found out there was a bomb in nyc a block away from where I used to work. That was fun. Ha. My family didn't tell me because, a) no one died, and b) I'm particularly messed up right now. (It came on me September 12th. I was waiting for the 11th to be over but I ended up worse. That was a fun discovery. Ha.)
So that's often a conundrum against those who help take care of me - what is news that I need to know, and what can go by? It's hard. Really hard to balance a knowledge of the world vs. overexposure. Do you have any troubles with that? If you're working outside the house, do you get a general idea of what's going on?

 

[abbynormal1929]

Me too, Abby. In fact, I just texted my therapist to ask him, if he thinks it's helpful or hurtful for...

Sorry, delayed reply. For the most part i don't think about any one thing in particular. It's mostly intense anxiety attaching itself to pretty much anything I think about. Money, is deffinetly a big one, but I don't think you need an anxiety disorder to be anxious about that. I can think about a vacation, and be anxious about how all the details will work out. Just yesterday I saw a doctor about a kidney issue, and I had some kind of panic attack while he was explaining my options. Got really dizzy and sweaty, which had happened before. If I hadn't stopped him im pretty sure my vision would have blurred, and I wouldn't have been able to maintain ballance enough to stand for a bit (From previous experience). I sleep through the mornings for the most part, and feel guilty about it afterward. I am also in the middle of adjusting to a med change at the moment (to be accurate to the situation), but i have so many new things going on that it's tough to tell what is from the med change, what is from the situation, and what is from the anxiety, depression, and depersonalization I already had. I feel like I can only wait.