Longterm Complex PTSD - Recent Trauma

[blindcynic]

Well, I recently had a traumatic affair happen and it's caused me to deteriorate back into a downwhirl spiral. I have been in recovery for almost two years. No episodes, no cutting, and actually feeling as if I was healthy for once.

Then a man broke into my house and assaulted me last week. I feel as if I'm slipping back into an abyss.

I had a bad episode, cut. and now my partner wants me to seek help. I don't really like talking, that's what therapy is for, but I thought I'd try this forum.

My name is Kris.

 

[AdamAnt]

Welcome to the forums, Kris. Sorry to hear you've relapsed. Hopefully you'll find what you need here, lots of good info to be found and a great group here.

 

[goingonhope]

Hello Kris, & Welcome to the Forum.

Please remember we don't heal trauma through selecting to do just what we like. Rather, we do what constructive good we must for ourselves, and others more times then not benefit; hope you find and do just what helps you on your continuing healing journey. Glad you found the forum.


Hope

 

[blindcynic]

thanks-police statement

Glad for the welcome, I honestly didn't think anyone would reply. Guess that's part of my own paranoia, it's hard for me to trust people to actually care.

I had to go to the police today to give my statement. It left me exhausted but relieved that it's over.

I feel better today, yet there is still a bit of a scared void I can't understand.

Kris

 

[amethist]

Hi blindcynic

Welcome to the forum.

You have found a great place for support and advice, but the best thing to do is to find a therapist who can help you get back on the right path with your healing. We can encourage and support you, but your own hard work and determination is what is needed now.

Take care and good luck.

Amethist

 

[James B.]

Welcome to the forum blindcynic - I like your handle "blindcynic", reminds me of myself. :-) Best wishes. and much strength on your path to a better life.

Sincerely,
James B.

 

[blindcynic]

treated

actually, i'm in current therapy. have been for the last two years.

this event was just so similar to tramatic events that caused my ptsd. i guess the new term is complex.

also medicated but just bad at remembering. i dislike being so co dependent on techniques and coping skills. i feel like i'm broken. (not sappy broken poor me, but the emotional control of a 15 year old).

ah that last statement hurt. time to go. thanks.

Kris

 

[blindcynic]

definition blindcynic : someone who is "cynical" to a fault, but still "blind" enough to care.

 

[AdamAnt]

I like it!