Sufferer Lost Again

[Rosie04]

I was diagnosed with PTSD last year. After being in a psychologically and eventually sexually abusive relationship for five years. I've had times where I've been fine and just got on with life but then there's times when I just can't do anything. At the moment I can't do my uni course, I can't see people, I can't start a relationship, I haven't even managed to feed myself this last day. There's so much going on in my head that I can't concentrate on anything, I dissociate, have panic attacks, emotional flashbacks and have so many intrusive thoughts. I react to things wrong, I think differently and change my opinion rapidly. It's like I'm a different person. There was an accumulation of triggers and I knew I was sliding down again but the main thing was when I attempted to date with the intent of finding a relationship. I met someone nice and I made a mess of it. I appeared crazy. I've discovered so many more triggers to do with relationships that I didn't know existed. I wonder if I'll ever manage to be with someone again. It's all pretty rubbish and I fear I will never be able to get out of this mess I'm in.

 

[RussH]

Frequently with PTSD when you are diagnosed, and start treatment, it seems to get worse as you start dealing with it. It does get better. It just takes time.

As for being in another relationship? There are good people out there, and you have the opportunity to meet someone wonderful, so don't rule it out.

 

[The Albatross]

Welcome Rosie, I think in your brief intro you've made a pretty astute assessment of your difficulties... on the up shot, you seem to be pretty self aware of your difficulties... and that's a good thing. Glad you're here.

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome to the forum! :)

Maybe just take one thing at a time.....relationships can add a ton of stress, so maybe just focus on healing right now?

 

[Suzetig]

Welcome to the forum, I hope you find support here.

 

[Zanshin]

Welcome. This site is a wealth of resources and people that understand, I hope it helps you as it has me. Wishes for peace and healing for you.

 

[intothelight]

@Rosie04 Welcome to the forum! :)

Take some time to work on yourself as the healthier that you are, the healthier your relationships will be. I hope you find this site beneficial to your healing.

 

[Rosie04]

Thanks everyone for your welcomes and kind words :)

 

[Deleted member 29920]

Welcome to the forum :hug:

 

[Rosie04]

Welcome to the forum :hug:

Thanks :)