Did you find anything that helped? I started on Effexor once a day with hydroxyzine up to three times a day as needed and that just made me a walking zombie and effected sex drive horribly. Literally felt like a drooling zombie most days. Doctor doesn't want to try Xanax or those kind of drugs because I have a high use of Alcohol for self medication in public functioning and he said the combo could really mess me up or kill me. So he put me on Buspar which I start tomorrow. He said it would take 2-3 weeks to feel the benefits. Reading your note above sounds like it didn't do well for you.
They call it anxiety and my therapist has me do breathing, grounding, and putting things in my "lock box" in my brain but that only helps in the moment. I really can't stand dealing with people at all. I fake it most times but having to fake it all the time even around my wife and kids sometimes is just too much.
I am hoping I find a medication combo I can use. So far the only medication that makes me feel better is Alcohol and I can't drink at work so just trying to find a pill that does the same thing but doesn't impair me to the point I am a zombie or impaired.
Anyone else have any good experiences on certain types of medication they can recommend? At this point I am all but checked out at work, my hair is getting long, I hate shaving, I hate being at work, I hate dealing with anyone, I have severe anxiety around medium to large crowds, I am angry all the time and feel like I am going to slam my breaks and let the tailgater behind me run into my car and then get out and beat them to a pulp. I get rapid breathing, throbbing head, and even blurred vision in some cases.
I know there is no "cure" for PTSD or whatever disorder they want to label us with, Axiety disorder, depressive disorder, ext. However I hope one day I can find a good combo of therapy and drugs to at least help me be somewhat normal again.
New member here so sorry for the rant. I type a "journal" daily and I read forums but this is the first time I have actually interacted on a forum.