Meltdown

[Seagreen]

For the past few weeks I've been feeling ok and managing all of my responsibilities better than I have done in a long time. Then today at around lunchtime suddenly came crashing down. No idea why but I'm feeling completely overwhelmed and struggling to focus enough to write this down. My partner is at work and I'm here with the children so I need to get myself together quickly so that I can get them all to bed soon.

So far I've tried, meditation, having a nap with the baby, a cup of tea in my room alone, reading some blogs I like and writing this post. But I cant focus on anything and the kids are constantly disrupting me anyway. Is there anything else I haven't thought of? I have sciatica at the moment as well so cant walk or drive anywhere.

 

[Seagreen]

Just wanting to add that I'm not suicidal or at risk of self harm or harming anyone else. I put it under the 'depression and suicidal ideation' section because it feels like depression at the moment.

 

[Shadowofdoubt]

sorry to hear seagreen. I have only had one major anxiety attack. I found that listening to lullaby music and watching this sort of psychedelic video that went along with it was helpful. I haven't been able to manage responsibilities in a while, though, so you're doing pretty good. Hang in there.

 

[J_trustno1]

Try doing some yoga. I'm sorry for not giving a proper answer but yoga followed by meditation often works for me. I'm not in the right frame of mind atm and sorry for any inconvenience.

 

[Seagreen]

Music is a good idea @Shadowofdoubt thanks.

Thanks @J_trustno1 I really appreciate you taking the time to reply to my post when you are also having a difficult time. I've never tried yoga but will look up some basic stuff to try.

 

[digger]

I know you've said you can't go for a walk, but is there anything you would be able to do in the garden? I find getting outside, in any way, generally helps me.

 

[Ellabella44]

any way you can put in earbuds for a bit? sometimes just putting them in and turning down the noise from everyone at home helps. put some relaxing sound on you tube or from music on your phone and have that be your white noise helps me finish a day like that when kids are home.

 

[Seagreen]

That is a great idea Ellabella! I think that could help

 

[seedling]

When my kids were old enough they would rub my feet for me. Are any of them old enough to help you out in some small way? Having someone else's help goes a long way.
Maybe you've managed to get them all to bed by now. If not, can you take some pressure off yourself by letting go of the expectation of having to be well enough to manage a perfect bedtime routine?

Hope you're feeling better soon.

 

[Seagreen]

I got them to bed eventually anđ even managed to pack up all of the cubbies and paper planes they had made. No idea how i did that much. Im freaking out about how much more there is to do but just cant.

 

[Nam]

I went through something similar this past week. My world just fell apart. So I went to bed. And the world kept going without me. I'm thinking you are very strong to keep it together enough to get the kids to bed. I just couldn't do anything. I downloaded some PTSD books because knowledge helps me stay calm. It also validates what I'm feeling and that I'm not a freak. And then I give permission to myself to do what I want within reason. I had cake in bed. And cake for breakfast. Not particularly healthy but it was better than driving somewhere. Or ruining something. I asked for help. (That one is a toughy!) I'm still recovering. I've also put my brain lower than my body. Sounds weird, but I used to be a gymnast so I know that doing a turnover helps me. So I laid on my bed with my head slightly off the bed and did some deep breathing. I'm pretty sure this is similar to yoga but I wanted to stay in my bed.

I tried to do nothing else but the main things: sleep, shower, engaged with kids when they asked, and eat a little something.

 

[seedling]

If only the energy we spend freaking out could be put into getting those things done! You have done well @Seagreen.