Middle Of The Night Panicks

[timetorecover]

I feel such a mess and so alone. Its nearly 5 am. I woke nearly 2 hours ago with that horrible feeling, like I had fallen out of a high storey building, totally panicked, hot, shaking, disorientated and nauses.

The shaking has stopped, I am now trying to analyse why this keeps happening to me.

I had therapy yesterday, its always worse after therapy.

I have not got any medication left and all I want is valium, I do not want to keep taking them, they are not the answer, I know that, but I just cannot pull myself together.

I preach mindfulness meditation but its making me feel worse.

I do not want to live my life like this, I am so tired and just want to feel normal. Wake up feeling normal and not petrified of how I am going to deal with the next day. I really do not want this anymore!

 

[Jawn]

My girlfriend also has panic attacks in the middle of the night. It can take a lot of effort for her to regain control, sometimes in minutes, but more often much longer. In our case I have been telling her to call me no mater what time it is and recently she finally did that. In that case she calmed down very quickly. She said is was just hearing my voice and knowing she had the attention of someone who cared and "tries" to understand.

While this doesn't necessarily help you, I just wanted to let you know that sometimes it takes a while to find something that helps you, but keep trying and you will find something that helps. Hang in there.

Jawn

 

[Meadowsweet]

It makes sense that feelings come up moreso after a therapy session, as your mind is trying to process things.

I find that something easy to watch on TV helps to ground me. Stuff like stand up comedy or light entertainment. Also, I sometimes have breakfast. I think because its part of my morning routine, it seems to signal to my brain that the night time is over.

These things obviously don't help with tiredness from lack of sleep. But they help with the fears that have come up.

 

[Srain]

I'm so sorry you are experiencing so much panic. I have gauged now that after my therapy appts I am usually am most at risk for a day or so for nightmares or flashbacks so I clear my appts and make sure I minimize as much stress as possible. I will watch comedies or lighthearted tv or play something that keeps me from delving too much into triggering or stress.

Have you discussed this with your therapist and brainstormed any ideas as to what might work best for you? Have talked with your doctor about ideas how to best deal with getting better sleep for now? I understand how days and days of bad sleep can't wreck havoc on your emotional and mental well-being, this is something I would defiantly let your professionals know is going with you.

Please take care, I'm probably up when you are, seems I'm always up, so you are certainly not alone in dealing with this.
Rain

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am sorry you are going thru this. You are not alone. I hate and loathe anxiety. i was alot better off when I did'nt have it. I love the days when I don't have it. It is such a robber and a thief. Turning on the tv helps, plus a cup of something hot. I hope you get some practical hands on suggetions that you can come back here and share.The days pick us, we do not pick the days. Can you have a stuffed anmal? It is amazing how something so simple can give comfort. I hope your symptoms lessen and it gets better for you. I hope you get some good sleep. Insomnia takes its toll. I guess I do not have to tell you this.

 

[timetorecover]

Another night of it, it is not fun at all. I hate how this is taking over my life, it is so debilitating. My husband just left for work, rolling his eyes at me for not being ok. He is fed up with me, he just wants be to be normal and I know he cannot take it any more. I think he is going to leave me, if he doesn't it will be a miracle.
My kids are waking up now, let me put that mask on and hold it together for a few hours till they are off at school! I think I am going to crack up today!!!