Hi fellow Musician, I totally get it. I performed in bands for years but always had c-ptsd. I also had a relationship and lots of children. Not a healthy one though (relationship that is). I didn't address my c-ptsd and much more trauma ensued and now I'm not well enough for that kind of work (temporarily), but I still sing in a choir to keep my pipes from atrophying. I have recently decided the arts degree I've started will be half devoted to music and the other writing. I found the very social and high profile side of being a performing musician pretty taxing but also LOVED the high of performing. I also adore collaborative music making and jamming and/ or live improv, and I'm very good at it ( if I dare say so, that sounds very "blowing my own trumpetish":cool::singing::x3:). I miss it loads and can't wait to be well enough to front a band and devote myself to showcasing my material as I'm a prolific songwriter/composer and (Dub) poet. I also love to dance.
I don't handle certain aspects of working in the music industry, very well, these days, though. The travelling and late, late nights would most likely fray me a lot. Anyway, I'm not doing a lot in that way at the moment, I just got out of an inpatients admission and recovery and family are my focus for the moment. It will be good to share more though and perhaps we can peer support each other as musos and sufferers. Take care. I'm glad you are reaching out at your age, I did it so tough and lonely as a young adult and teen, when I started out, but also enjoyed aspects of the musical lifestyle and therapeutic value of the music making itself. Great therapy.:happy::headphone::joyful:
