My Boyfriend Comes Back Today

[MoonGoddessHeart]

My boyfriend comes back from vacation today, and I was feeling so amazing about seeing him. I had such a blast while he was gone and experienced no intense PTSD related symptoms. And then all last night, I had the worst nightmares. This morning I woke up crying, and I feel really sick. Although, I think I could be catching a cold.

Can someone give me some advice on how to feel a little more confident before I see him? I am really scared just being around him is going to trigger me, and I really want to show him that I am getting better. I really wish I didn't have the nightmares... Everything was going really well, and I was feeling so good.

 

[Nilrath]

Hi Paige!

I have PTSD and a fiancee. It can be kind of rough when it comes to experiencing PTSD symptoms around her, because I really don't want her to worry about me. But, I have a technique that helps me keep her as the one thing that can make me happy without fail. When she's around, I always pay attention to how she makes me feel. I think about all the good times we have had, and how many more we COULD have in the future.

My brain is funny. It likes to think about one thing for a really really long time, over and over again until I'm tired about thinking about that one thing, and then I move onto the next thing. Sometimes this is a good thing, sometimes this is a bad thing. So, I encourage myself to think about good things, so that I can associate certain things with good feelings. Such as my fiancee.

I hope this helps, and welcome!