My Brain And Body Act Separately Sometimes...??

[Greeneyz83]

I have PTSD because of childhood abuse. I've done this as long as I can remember, But I've just now realized that it is not "normal" behavior. And I think maybe it's getting worse. This is my problem. I don't know whats its called.. So I will just explaine what happens.

Its like my brain and my body are not attached. Like I'm watching a movie of myself and at the same time making coments about the "movie". Most of the time it happens while I am just doing whatever. But recently it happend while I was in a rage, my brain was calm and was telling me to stop, but my body was out of control. It happens when I talk to people, somtimes I will just stare off while it happens. Other times I am driving or walking the dog. I litterly try to talk my brain back into my body.

Does this sound crazy?? Does anyone have any suggestions?

 

[Deleted member 1859]

Its called disassociation and it was a great survival tool because of the abuse, however its run its course. You arent crazy but you may need to see a counsellor about grounding or see what others on the thread have done. My worst time is drikving on my own.

 

[kers]

What you are experiencing is a common feature of PTSD, especially when the trauma was childhood abuse. Many of us struggle with it; it can be quite unnerving. It can also be very soothing, as it is a defense against facing the pain of the trauma. If you search the forum for "dissociation" (advanced search for articles) you will find some really useful threads that expand on this at length.
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[Fragile]

This happened to me a lot and why I live alone now, especially where you said, "But recently it happened while I was in a rage, my brain was calm and was telling me to stop, but my body was out of control." That was the point when my sanity was being strained and began to call it into question as well. A breaking point for me finally. I was being mentally abused while in a trapped situation and couldn't figure out what to do about it for many years. It really messed me up that I wasn't able to get out of the situation sooner. If you are in a situation that's bad for you, I hope you can get away from it as quickly as possible because these kinds of things only break a person down more and more. You are still young and I hope you will protect yourself from people and situations that would be destructive to you in the long run.

 

[Sasa]

This has also happened to me and can be a great tool to protect from further trauma. However, it does keep me living in kind of a dream type world. I find I don't use that as much anymore, but sometimes it still happens. It is like I am looking in a window at what is happening actually right in front of me or to me. Just like a movie. I do everything on autopilot. It can be wierd, but also comforting to know that safe place is still there for me.