My Friend Sent A Good-bye Note

[Justmehere]

I got an automated message back that shows my messages have been opened and read. By someone. It could be anyone who picked up her phone. It's hopefully her. No response yet. Ah. This sucks! I just want her to say anything...

I'm headed to focus on a class and get work done. I can't really do anything more. Trying so hard to not watch my phone for a response or call from her or anyone else about her.

My therapist is gone but I did call my psychiatrist for the second time ever. She was really supportive and told me all my reactions were normal and that I was doing all the right things.

This makes me feel awful for what others went through when I attempted sucidie myself years ago. I didn't mean to worry anyone when the doctor sent the police to find me... I don't judge her or blame her. Trying to learn to forgive myself in the middle of this too.

 

[sun seeker]

I just read this, so sorry for what you are going through! Have you heard anything more?:hug::hug:

 

[Justmehere]

Nothing more....

 

[sun seeker]

Oh @Justmehere, I feel for you. I feel for both of you. Keep letting us know what happens as the day goes on please.

 

[Deleted member 19804]

I'm thinking of you and your friend. :hug:s if you accept them.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

JMH, she has clearly gone off missing, to keep you hanging on this long now I am afraid to say is beyond concern, she IMHO is now manipulating you. I am so sorry to be blunt about this but 12 years of Suicide Intervention Management taught me to be very good at my job.

 

[Justmehere]

Maybe, maybe not. Her family just reached out to me. They can't find her. She could be screwing with all of us, she could not be. I don't know... There's nothing I can do, so I'm pulling away. She knows how to reach me if she is ok and her family know how to reach me to tell me if she has passed away.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

You have made a very wise and I understand only too well difficult decision to make. Distance now for you will be a healer. As part of my Job I supported people who took traumatic suicide calls at work. I offer that support right now if you wish to accept it hun.

 

[sun seeker]

I have nothing to say that will make all this go away, which is what I wish I could do. Just wanted to say I'm thinking of you, and so very sorry this is happening. :hug:

 

[ButterflyBean]

@Justmehere is there any news? I've been following this thread and thinking of both you and your friend. When do you see your therapist again? I hope she can help you deal with everything by providing support and compassion in whatever way you need. Gentle hugs if you accept them!

 

[Tanishq]

@Justmehere this is very difficult to deal with. :hug: Sending you a hug.

 

[WhisperingUnicorn]

@Justmehere .. Hoping you hear GOOD news, and can report back that there, perhaps, was just some misunderstanding. :hug: