MyherohasPTSD
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So.. here is the 411 on myself. I've known my hubby for my entire life. We dated briefly before but we wanted different things in life at the time and it was a short run. I never lost feelings for my hubby during our time apart.
In 2004 he was hit in Iraq by a 40mm mortar after his team returned back to base from doing a raid mission. He was 3ft inside the kill zone (which was 7ft from where the bomb exploded). It blew up the entire left side of his body leaving 100s of pieces of shrapnel in his body, depleted uranium poisioning, nerve damage to his left leg(no feeling or movement from the knee down). And the famous night terrors.
My hubby took part in very intense and character judging missions, which now he has a hard time rationalizing reasoning for. He also suffers from a moderate TBI which he acquired from his mortar attack. He was hit during a sand storm so now anytime we have a bad storm, its a sleepless night for both of us. The fourth of July was one of our favorite holidays before he was deployed and now fireworks are a stresser due to the noise.
A glimpse into the things I deal with is one of his more reoccuring dreams where they are under attack and he pulls a dead body over him to conceal himself (still dont know if this one is a metophoric dream or if it happend) and I'm drug off the bed pulled on top of him and he tries to shimmy under the bed with both of us. I'm constantly kicked shoved and drug off the bed at night while he sleeps.
I'm fortunate enough yet unfortunate enough to know 90% of what happend when he was deployed and what he has done. It helps me understand his stressors yet it breaks my heart not being able to take the pain that his actions cause him away.
Again I've known my hubby my entire life so I know who he was before and I can understand who he is now, but at times I hit my mental breaking point too and it will be nice to be able to relate to others and have an outlet where people understand and don't say I'm dumb for staying or question his behaviors. Sorry if this was long winded or a little random at points, tried hitting key points.
Thanks for reading,
Abrianna
So.. here is the 411 on myself. I've known my hubby for my entire life. We dated briefly before but we wanted different things in life at the time and it was a short run. I never lost feelings for my hubby during our time apart.
In 2004 he was hit in Iraq by a 40mm mortar after his team returned back to base from doing a raid mission. He was 3ft inside the kill zone (which was 7ft from where the bomb exploded). It blew up the entire left side of his body leaving 100s of pieces of shrapnel in his body, depleted uranium poisioning, nerve damage to his left leg(no feeling or movement from the knee down). And the famous night terrors.
My hubby took part in very intense and character judging missions, which now he has a hard time rationalizing reasoning for. He also suffers from a moderate TBI which he acquired from his mortar attack. He was hit during a sand storm so now anytime we have a bad storm, its a sleepless night for both of us. The fourth of July was one of our favorite holidays before he was deployed and now fireworks are a stresser due to the noise.
A glimpse into the things I deal with is one of his more reoccuring dreams where they are under attack and he pulls a dead body over him to conceal himself (still dont know if this one is a metophoric dream or if it happend) and I'm drug off the bed pulled on top of him and he tries to shimmy under the bed with both of us. I'm constantly kicked shoved and drug off the bed at night while he sleeps.
I'm fortunate enough yet unfortunate enough to know 90% of what happend when he was deployed and what he has done. It helps me understand his stressors yet it breaks my heart not being able to take the pain that his actions cause him away.
Again I've known my hubby my entire life so I know who he was before and I can understand who he is now, but at times I hit my mental breaking point too and it will be nice to be able to relate to others and have an outlet where people understand and don't say I'm dumb for staying or question his behaviors. Sorry if this was long winded or a little random at points, tried hitting key points.
Thanks for reading,
Abrianna
