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Mrs Challenged
In 2010 my mum passed away suddenly. For a long time prior to that our relationship had been extremely fractured. Since I opened up to my mother about the details of my cptsd (when I was 16, I’m now 51) she had blamed me for what went on ……… like WTF!!!!
Even though she passed away 15 years ago in May, I still feel like she is living in side my head. She is extremely overpowering, is only happy if I do exactly what she says, and is incredibly judgemental.
Some might find this funny, to me it is a bit funny, but I also really struggle. My mother used to make a huge deal about coloured / and or black bras under a white shirt. For a long time now I’ve thought that I’d like to try this, but every single time I hear her voice chastising me about even thinking about it.
I get very fearful of the consequences of going against what she has frowned upon.
I’d like to try and shift from this, and actually do what I want, but I’m not exactly sure how? Do others have similar situations.
Mental health is really tough, I’m very isolated with no one to talk to really ‘nut’ it out. I’m hoping that someone has had a similar experience or can reassure me that I’m not alone
Even though she passed away 15 years ago in May, I still feel like she is living in side my head. She is extremely overpowering, is only happy if I do exactly what she says, and is incredibly judgemental.
Some might find this funny, to me it is a bit funny, but I also really struggle. My mother used to make a huge deal about coloured / and or black bras under a white shirt. For a long time now I’ve thought that I’d like to try this, but every single time I hear her voice chastising me about even thinking about it.
I get very fearful of the consequences of going against what she has frowned upon.
I’d like to try and shift from this, and actually do what I want, but I’m not exactly sure how? Do others have similar situations.
Mental health is really tough, I’m very isolated with no one to talk to really ‘nut’ it out. I’m hoping that someone has had a similar experience or can reassure me that I’m not alone