My Personal PTSD Successes!

[pandora]

Two weeks..no benzos. Med number one down! Next...the pain killer....Today is a day that I have to keep saying..you can do this but it is a pms fun filled, anxiety ridden, roller coaster ride day!

 

[Grama-Herc]

You Go Girl ! :thumbs-up

 

[midi]

Busy your mind with other thoughts! One day at a time!

 

[Grama-Herc]

Well Pandora my friend

Just dropping by to see how you re doing. I am sure you are having a rough time BUT you are doing it and that is what counts

My prayers are with you. Keep it up

 

[pandora]

I am ok..no benzos..no more sleeping meds. There was a change..now I am going on suboxone to help with withdrawals. I get the medication this tues now...was supposed to start tomorrow but he did not want to start me over the long weekend. I see him two times on tues and then thursday..they monitor you very closely. I am thankful to start this new med and that it is available for me and I do not have to do the 5 day medical detox because it will not be as bad..it is going to be yucky still but I am strong!! I can do this I just have to keep reminding myself and the support and encouragement is such a blessing to me. I have another two hour pre-treatment meeting tomorrow and the full time day program starts a week from monday and the worst of the withdrawls should be mostly over by then. I read it can be anywhere from 5-21 days that you really feel like shit. Having my Mom to help with my son during this time is my dream come true. I followed through as I promised..I just needed the help and the supports that have now all been put in place. All prayers, support and encouragement is so welcome at this time.

 

[suzie q]

Just a small note to say thanks for sharing. I wish we had the medical avenues you seem to have there in the US. We seem to sometimes be a day late and a dollar short. Having 13 years clean and sober, I applaud you on your courage and strength during this "weaning stage". What you are stopping can cause great pain and withdrawal. I've been there and encourage you to ask for help when needed.

I hate feeling alone when I'm in pain, so don't hesitate to reach out with your feelings. I'll see you around the forum.

Love and prayers,
suzie q :hello: :clap:

 

[Deleted member 541]

Pand,


Yes, you did follow through with your promise.....I am so proud of you for doing this too. I know that we have talked in depth about this, and I know that you can get this done, and put it behind you.. You are strong, and you can do this. You HAVE to do this... Not only for yourself but for your son.....

We are all here if and when you need the support, or a swift kick in the butt. If needed!!!!! LOL!!!!

 

[ISupportHer]

First, I just wanted to add an acknowledgment of how hard this process is and that I think it is such a positive thing for you. I somehow had missed this thread before but I don't even know you but am proud of you, proud FOR you.

It does seem that you are aware and benefit from the support expressed to you here.

You voiced some concerns about "letting" yourself get to this point. With the pain issue and medications. Again, I do not know you or your situation but will just share a little about my wife's history. As I have really struggled at times with the whole PTSD "presentation" as I try to learn so I can understand and react, there have been a few things that have been eye openers. For her, the cause is abuse as a child, assaults as an adolescent. There are books out there for partners and they describe the way that affects someone. One of those "WOW" that is exactly what I see in my wife" things was the discovery that one common experience is that survivors tend to have lots of pain issues. Somatic complaints usually that are low back, gyn, and bladder. Issues below the waist. That was amazing to me. I cannot tell you how many surgeries she has had over the years. A dozen probably. All below the waist.

I guess I am saying this not as an excuse but as an awareness that PTSD is far reaching. That there may be other processes involved with sufferers. We all have responsibility for our actions but there are underlying currents in all we do and say.

So good luck. Try not to be too hard on yourself and I hope you can replace some of that guilt with the pride we all feel for you. And if you falter.....Get back up and keep trying. We will support that too, if needed.

 

[pandora]

Thank you for the encouragement!!!
Well....one more day and then it starts..monday morning is my last med day...My son is at a sleepover. I am getting lost in tv...I am going to be so sick on tues..for about 5 days..it would be worse if I was not taking the suboxone..so this mess is almost over..this aspect of PTSD..wanting to get out of my own skin is almost over. The next week is going to be stressful!!!
ISupporther...I too have had 3 surgeries..below the waist. It is amazing what this disorder can do to us..body, mind and spirit.

 

[Cate]

Hey Pandora.

Just wanted to post a reply for you to read when you come back.

I am so proud of you because I know the courage it takes to change those old behaviours. You can do this for yourself and for your very brave son!

Take care of YOU and everything else will fall into place.

Godspeed.
Cate

 

[pandora]

I am doing wonderfully well...the pain killers are done. Never again will my life be that out of hand. I am tolerating the suboxone and the withdrawals have been eased by this med and i am having a very good reaction to it!!!! I feel very proud of myself!

 

[Deleted member 541]

I just want to add here...

I have personally been talking to Pandora, via phone for about a year now, and today was the first time I have talked to her since she started her detox journey 8 days ago....... I can NOT believe the change in her. He voice is strong, she is sure of herself, she is so clear headed, and most important, she feels good and is doing great........The change in her is like night and day......

Pand, I know I said it at least 10 times on the phone, but once again, I would like to tell you how happy I am for you that you had the courage to do this.....You are an example for others here, in that , they too can do this if they set their minds to it......

You should be proud of what you have accomplished. Keep moving forward, and keep striving to fulfill your dreams......