recoveringfromptsd
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My primary care doctor (medical) is with the same group that provides my mental health care, and she is leaving at the end of this month, when I was in crisis along with my therapist she was there for me and understood what I was going thru in my crisis, she was working to get me into Sheppard Pratt as well as my mental health therapist. So as medical doctors are concerned she is kind of special, one of a kind if you get my meaning.
I am worried the next doctor I get won't be receptive or understanding, worse I worry I will get stuck with a male doctor, which I absolutely cannot have happen. If that happens I will probably have a melt down.
I have been having a lot of thoughts around this, on top of dealing with the feelings and emotions, body memories, and flashbacks from my abuse therapy. With that alone I have had the urge to cut to get some relief but I have used my DBT skills to not submit to my urges, and done well so far, but this is sort of like my world is beginning to fall apart, and I never deal with that well. It is certainly uncertainty and I don't deal with that well either. I have even thought about O/Ding if this part of my care falls apart.
I am worried the next doctor I get won't be receptive or understanding, worse I worry I will get stuck with a male doctor, which I absolutely cannot have happen. If that happens I will probably have a melt down.
I have been having a lot of thoughts around this, on top of dealing with the feelings and emotions, body memories, and flashbacks from my abuse therapy. With that alone I have had the urge to cut to get some relief but I have used my DBT skills to not submit to my urges, and done well so far, but this is sort of like my world is beginning to fall apart, and I never deal with that well. It is certainly uncertainty and I don't deal with that well either. I have even thought about O/Ding if this part of my care falls apart.