Sufferer My Ptsd

[durbin]

I am new to the site and just needed to find somewhere to post how I feel everyday. I have PTSD from combat and suffer every waken minute. Everyday I feel like a failure, I have done nothing in my life. I fought for a country that has abandoned me. My everyday life I am locked in my apartment in one room worrying what is going on outside. I lost everything my job, life, and my family. My soon to be ex-wife ridicules me everyday and calls me crazy and mental. I can't look or talk to my kids. All I want in this world is someone to love, care, and be there for me. I seem to chase all them people away. I've ran off to be homeless for months and was picked up by the police and sent to the VA in-patient. I've been on every kind of medication and treatment and nothing seems to work. Recently I have just decided to stop taking my medication and stop seeing people at the VA because to me they don't work at all. I have been pondering in doing a Leaving Las Vegas. I hope I didn't disturb anyone. I just needed somewhere to release some of this. Sorry.

 

[Friday]

Heya Durbin, & welcome. Whole lot sounds familiar. This site & the sister-site http:// have a whole lot of knowledge to kick. Whole helluva lot of hardwork and pain involved to get there... But it gets better, man. For true. SemperFi.

If you haven't yet, make sure to read this
The Ptsd Cup Explanation

 

[shimmerz]

Your story is familiar to me. I didn't enrol for combat, I was born into it. I many times feel like society has dumped me too. It does get much better. I can't really add to what Friday has posted. I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone here. May you find peace....

 

[garden]

Welcome to the forum, so glad you found us. There are many here who can relate to what you have been through. May you find comfort with us.

 

[theotherside]

Welcome :) I can relate to a lot you said.

 

[J.Nem]

Welcome friend, you are not alone and never will be. Forget that Leaving Las Vegas stuff - Your life is worth so much more than that. I have been to the bottom too. You can get back up my friend, you will get back up - you will. No one here will ridicule you or call you names. We are here for you. God bless you today.

 

[Sighs]

@durbin - Welcome. I am a supporter rather than a sufferer, but my man has been through something similar - his wife left him because she "wanted her strong soldier back" and wasn't prepared to deal with his PTSD.

Fast forward 5 or 6 years - while his PTSD has not magically vanished he has built a new life for himself. I love him very much and try very hard to support him as best I can. There is light at the end of the tunnel.

 

[intothelight]

@durbin Welcome and I hope you find the forums helpful.

 

[AuraBunny]

:)Hi Durban,
Thank you for serving the country, I am here for support and actually have a fiance in the Navy. I want to let you know you're not crazy or mental. You have done such a selfless thing to better your future because you care about your life and family. You're a good father who needs compassion and understanding for the things you went through.

 

[Nighthawk]

Welcome

 

[joeylittle]

Welcome to the forum, @durbin :)