It's been a long time since I was last active here. It's been a tough 6 months, but I'm still fighting. Some days are better than others.
To recap: I finished and passed my thesis for my Bachelor's degree, and I only need to pass one more mandatory course in order to graduate. However, I have decided to use the second semester to take some extra courses. This will not only be useful, but it will also allow me to stay in my current flat until I get accepted into another university for my Master's degree.
I still have EMDR treatment once a week. At first it was absolutely horrifying, because I couldn't stay in the present when going through the pieces of the trauma. I kept getting full-on flashbacks, so it's no wonder that my symptoms were actually worsening. Thankfully, my T is very patient with me and allows me to hold onto a small object during the EMDR parts, which helps me stay in the present. We've gone through most of the trauma now, but I will probably need additional therapy when the EMDR treatment is over. I still feel very tired, overstressed, and at least slightly depressed most of the time.
Also, the family dog is not doing well at all. He had a seizure and has not been himself since. He lives with my parents, but he is one of my best friends. The idea of losing him breaks my heart.
I have been trying to take good care of myself, which I am failing at more than I'm succeeding. But that is not really a new thing. However, I am always keeping an eye on the future and working towards my goals. I'm excited to finally graduate and hopefully finish therapy within a year. I will try to be more active on this forum again. Not just because it would be good for me, but also because I have missed my wonderful friends here and I want to be there for others as well.
