Navigating triggers, can't manage reactions

[nohone]

My triggers are based in the issues of trust. When I’m suddenly betrayed in some way, wether it be sexually, mainly sexually, but even other ways it causes me to shut down. Also my trigger is consensual sex. When. I was navigating it with a new partner I even threw up once because my body forces me to stop, or I disconnect during it and black out. It’s so hard for me. It got so bad this last time I pushed him off me and he tried to comfort me and I explaimed “don’t touch me” and started crying. Touching and feeling not even down there just sensually can make me throw up, I even have to stop that sometimes. I don’t really like touch to begin with. With anyone. I don’t let anyone touch me. My therapist sexually harassed me and I had to stop the sessions. That made me spiral farther.

 

[EveHarrington]

Hi,
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[nohone]

Hi,
Can I ask what kind of responses you are looking for? Thanks!

How to navigate the triggers. If it’s possible