bluelapis12
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Hello,
I am a Navy Vet and I have PTSD, Anxiety, Major Depressive Disorder, Panic Attacks, Fibromyalgia, Meniers, Arthritis, Carpal Tunnel...the list goes on and the Dr.s keep adding to it. Married to a Navy Vet with PTSD, and Bipolar. So the downs are really down, the ups for me are irritating, and I'm constantly thinking about if its worth it to stay and not just bug out and live in the woods, not a fan of people in general, or in civilization at all. Hoping I can hang out in here and get some insight because the stress is doing things to my body that are difficult to deal with. Recently just popped up with tendinitis and piriformis syndrome and the Dr. says it's a Fibromyalgia flare from the stress. Feeling trapped, hopeless and guilty over my inability to do things I once did. Have one grown son who is doing ok in his own world in another town, but inlaws living in an RV on my front lawn :( and constantly dealing with new crap I can't deal with. Oh, and father in law is Marine Vet from the worst of the crap in Vietnam, so you all know about what that's like to deal with. He is also showing signs of dementia or Alzheimers. I have absolutely no time to myself, can't sleep because husband has to go in for a surgical biopsy with a specialist for his thyroid since two tests were inconclusive. That means driving from Idaho to Seattle, and I hate the city. The traffic alone has me popping pills for anxiety. My Dad is in a nursing home in southern Oregon, we've been taking trips down to see him but its super expensive to do, something awful stress-wise, and it takes weeks to get back to a routine when we get home. I have a shrink I see and so does he, but I feel so overwhelmed. I don't know what to do anymore to deal with this stress and all these complications. I'm thinking of asking for sleeping pills (which I really DON'T want to take!) because I need the rest. I avoid all the pills if I can, but right now there is so much going on that is heavy I just can't deal with it using methods I have at hand. I'm on heavy doses of Gabapentin for the fibro, ibuprofen for arthritis, and taking antidepressants and so on. I feel like I need a weeks vacation and a month of sleep, and isolation away from everyone.
I am a Navy Vet and I have PTSD, Anxiety, Major Depressive Disorder, Panic Attacks, Fibromyalgia, Meniers, Arthritis, Carpal Tunnel...the list goes on and the Dr.s keep adding to it. Married to a Navy Vet with PTSD, and Bipolar. So the downs are really down, the ups for me are irritating, and I'm constantly thinking about if its worth it to stay and not just bug out and live in the woods, not a fan of people in general, or in civilization at all. Hoping I can hang out in here and get some insight because the stress is doing things to my body that are difficult to deal with. Recently just popped up with tendinitis and piriformis syndrome and the Dr. says it's a Fibromyalgia flare from the stress. Feeling trapped, hopeless and guilty over my inability to do things I once did. Have one grown son who is doing ok in his own world in another town, but inlaws living in an RV on my front lawn :( and constantly dealing with new crap I can't deal with. Oh, and father in law is Marine Vet from the worst of the crap in Vietnam, so you all know about what that's like to deal with. He is also showing signs of dementia or Alzheimers. I have absolutely no time to myself, can't sleep because husband has to go in for a surgical biopsy with a specialist for his thyroid since two tests were inconclusive. That means driving from Idaho to Seattle, and I hate the city. The traffic alone has me popping pills for anxiety. My Dad is in a nursing home in southern Oregon, we've been taking trips down to see him but its super expensive to do, something awful stress-wise, and it takes weeks to get back to a routine when we get home. I have a shrink I see and so does he, but I feel so overwhelmed. I don't know what to do anymore to deal with this stress and all these complications. I'm thinking of asking for sleeping pills (which I really DON'T want to take!) because I need the rest. I avoid all the pills if I can, but right now there is so much going on that is heavy I just can't deal with it using methods I have at hand. I'm on heavy doses of Gabapentin for the fibro, ibuprofen for arthritis, and taking antidepressants and so on. I feel like I need a weeks vacation and a month of sleep, and isolation away from everyone.
