General Nearly healed, then, Bam! hospitalized

[Grateful Greg]

I haven't been here in over a year because my girlfriend was improving and seemed to be coming to the surface more and more. A few months ago she began taking a low dose of Zoloft and after a few weeks it appeared to have helped tremendously. But a about a week ago, she started to dissociate and then pop out of the dissosiative state and be wide eyed and alert and glowing. Sounds good right? But the wide eyed, glowing state, felt to me, unnatural and extremely creepy. Then, she began to get irritated with me. She would be very loving and caring and then, seemingly on purpose, try to aggravate me and just pick and poke until I was riddled with anxiety. Then, I could tell she was comparing me and our relationship, with her abuser and that relationship. Four days ago, I said, "you have to try and separate me from the things you hate". She said, "I know". The next day was terrifying. She had that creepy glow (people would say she looked angelic, but it felt dark) and put her hand on my heart and I completely lost my breath and felt my blood pressure drop and I was filled with fear. I took her hand away, and when I caught my breath she reached for me again and I shouted "stop it!" And then she lunged toward me and I grabbed her wrists and sat on top of her as she writhed and screamed, her face twisted, angry and unrecognizable. It was just like a movie about exorcism. I held her and said "you are a good person, you have so much love, you take ants outside rather than kill them", "the bad things that happened to you are not your fault." And she was screaming the name of her abuser and saying it's not me. And I said I know this isn't you, I want you to come to me! Calm down and I will drive you to the hospital! She seemed to calm a bit, and I released the hold on her wrists and with lightening speed stuck her hand in my mouth and tried to rip my face off. Then she got me in a bear hug, stood up and body slammed me to the ground, which knocked the wind out of me. I said "let me drive you to the hospital" and she said "I will never get in a car with you", " you are the one with the demon and you're going to kill me!"
The police found her without pants on and she was extremely combative and they had to forcibly restrain her. She's in hospital now. Two days after she got there she called me. At first she said I know you are a good person but it was you that created all that evil, the demon is in you! She said, if you don't admit it I'm hanging up. I said "I don't know what happened, but I have been reading the Bible and praying non-stop. She said that was good. She said she had to use the restroom and would call me back. She hasn't, it's been over 24 hours. Oh yeah, the hospital staff treated me like an abuser and wouldn't even let me tell them about her PTSD or medication. I'm terrified! I'm heartbroken, I feel helpless and I feel villified and judged. What is happening? Anyone else have this type of experience?

 

[Gs172003]

I haven't been here in over a year because my girlfriend was improving and seemed to be coming to the surface more and more. A few months ago she began taking a low dose of Zoloft and after a few weeks it appeared to have helped tremendously. But a about a week ago, she started to dissociate and then pop out of the dissosiative state and be wide eyed and alert and glowing. Sounds good right? But the wide eyed, glowing state, felt to me, unnatural and extremely creepy. Then, she began to get irritated with me. She would be very loving and caring and then, seemingly on purpose, try to aggravate me and just pick and poke until I was riddled with anxiety. Then, I could tell she was comparing me and our relationship, with her abuser and that relationship. Four days ago, I said, "you have to try and separate me from the things you hate". She said, "I know". The next day was terrifying. She had that creepy glow (people would say she looked angelic, but it felt dark) and put her hand on my heart and I completely lost my breath and felt my blood pressure drop and I was filled with fear. I took her hand away, and when I caught my breath she reached for me again and I shouted "stop it!" And then she lunged toward me and I grabbed her wrists and sat on top of her as she writhed and screamed, her face twisted, angry and unrecognizable. It was just like a movie about exorcism. I held her and said "you are a good person, you have so much love, you take ants outside rather than kill them", "the bad things that happened to you are not your fault." And she was screaming the name of her abuser and saying it's not me. And I said I know this isn't you, I want you to come to me! Calm down and I will drive you to the hospital! She seemed to calm a bit, and I released the hold on her wrists and with lightening speed stuck her hand in my mouth and tried to rip my face off. Then she got me in a bear hug, stood up and body slammed me to the ground, which knocked the wind out of me. I said "let me drive you to the hospital" and she said "I will never get in a car with you", " you are the one with the demon and you're going to kill me!"
The police found her without pants on and she was extremely combative and they had to forcibly restrain her. She's in hospital now. Two days after she got there she called me. At first she said I know you are a good person but it was you that created all that evil, the demon is in you! She said, if you don't admit it I'm hanging up. I said "I don't know what happened, but I have been reading the Bible and praying non-stop. She said that was good. She said she had to use the restroom and would call me back. She hasn't, it's been over 24 hours. Oh yeah, the hospital staff treated me like an abuser and wouldn't even let me tell them about her PTSD or medication. I'm terrified! I'm heartbroken, I feel helpless and I feel villified and judged. What is happening? Anyone else have this type of experience?

Let her get stabilized. She may talk to you after that. She needs time to be treated.

 

[Grateful Greg]

Let her get stabilized. She may talk to you after that. She needs time to be treated.

Thanks. I'm feeling very helpless and the bizzare, darkness makes me need to know someone is out there

 

[Gs172003]

Thanks. I'm feeling very helpless and the bizzare, darkness makes me need to know someone is out there

You're welcome

 

[lostforgottensoul]

And then she lunged toward me and I grabbed her wrists and sat on top of her as she writhed and screamed

Oh my!

A few months ago she began taking a low dose of Zoloft

Medication can do a lot of things to people including making them act like they have a demon in them. Hopefully the hospital can get her meds figured out and get her more stabilized. In my opinion, she is in the best place right now.

 

[Justmehere]

None of us can diagnose what’s going on but it might be that she had a psychotic break.

I’d be really careful about being with her when she’s claiming you are evil and you had to physically protect yourself. It may be fueled by mental illness but that doesn’t change that she tried to assault you. This is likely going to be a long road to stability and being together with her right now might be playing with fire and one of you ending up with domestic violence charges.

Oh yeah, the hospital staff treated me like an abuser and wouldn't even let me tell them about her PTSD or medication.

She has to sign release forms for them to even admit to you she is a patient. It’s my guess she didn’t give them that permission and that’s why they won’t talk to you about her.

She is too sick to be in a relationship right now. I’m sorry it has turned out this way.

 

[blackemerald1]

I wouldn't take what she is and has been saying as her serious viewpoint on you or anything right now.

It seems fairly obvious that she's having some kind of psychiatric event or episode and I agree with other responses here... she's got to be diagnosed, be treated in the appropriate way and she needs time in the hospital for that to happen.

I'm not sure if you know your gf's parents/family who have been recorded as next of kin. If you are not on that list the hospital will be complying with privacy provisions. So you could ring/contact her family to see how she is.

Take care of yourself.

 

[Grateful Greg]

None of us can diagnose what’s going on but it might be that she had a psychotic break.

I’d be really careful about being with her when she’s claiming you are evil and had to physically protect yourself. It may be field by mental illness but that doesn’t change that she tried to assault you. This is likely going to be a long road to stability and being together with her right now might be playing with fire and one of you ending up with domestic violence charges.

She has to sign release forms for them to even admit to you she is a patient. It’s my guess she didn’t give them that permission and that’s why they won’t talk to you about her.

She is too sick to be in a relationship right now. I’m sorry is turned out this way.

Thanks for responding. Our 9th anniversary is next month. We're very close and I haven't spent much time away from her. My family lives 3000 miles away, so I'm already lonely and sick to my stomach with worry about all this. I have been reading or listening to Bible passages for three days.

 

[The Albatross]

Glad you came to get support Greg. Nothing of consequence to share really... but considering the circumstances take a look at you're familial support and what you can do about being lonely.

 

[Ronin]

Oh yeah, the hospital staff treated me like an abuser and wouldn't even let me tell them about her PTSD or medication.

Try not to take their seeming coldness personally, Greg...
They are probably just figuring out how bad break is she having, why, and how to stabilize her.
Anyone, no matter how well intentioned, getting that reaction out of their patient is a risk, just because they are destabilizing their patient... for who they need to care first and foremost.

It literally isnt about you, but that your girlfriend is *currently* very sick, and until she gets better, all sorts of judgments are better be put on hold.

Seconding others, also, you got to care for you and your safety *first*, right now.

 

[lostforgottensoul]

Thanks for responding. Our 9th anniversary is next month. We're very close and I haven't spent much time away from her. My family lives 3000 miles away, so I'm already lonely and sick to my stomach with worry about all this. I have been reading or listening to Bible passages for three days.

That's got to be hard! I'm sorry! Do you do any self care?

ETA: Sorry, sorry missed the reading the Bible part. That sounds like a good self care technique for ya!

 

[Deanna]

Thanks for responding. Our 9th anniversary is next month. We're very close and I haven't spent much time away from her. My family lives 3000 miles away, so I'm already lonely and sick to my stomach with worry about all this. I have been reading or listening to Bible passages for three days.

You're not a demon. I hope that is why you're listening to bible passages. Someone/ Something of influence has filled her head with some demon thing. Put the bible down for a bit a be good to yourself. You aren't the monster. Zoloft worsens insomnia. She should have been given something for sleep but they will get this all figured out.

Sorry this happened. Sending good luck wishes. I know its hard to let go. She'll be okay eventually.