Relationship Never Dealt With Ptsd, Among Other Mental Illness's In A Relationship

[Ronin]

Since when do we call people "trolls"?

Since they come to a place of survivors & supporters, and insist their people beating is good manners?

 

[The Albatross]

I've seen no evidence that the OP thinks it's "good manners". Entrenched in her mindset? Yeah sure... BUT... she did come to the forum and post that she was scared and didn't want to loose her boyfriend. Of course, she also says, "It's not my fault"... and seems not to be at a point where she realizes that she has an equal role in the dynamic of the relationship and is defending her abuse. Not stellar... but ultimately, it's her job to initiate change... if she's resistant it doesn't make her a troll.

 

[The Albatross]

I know my actions are my doing and my fault, but he upsets me ... [snip] If he would just come through for me instead of constant disappointing me, I wouldn't be upset all the time.

@nataly87 It has already been pointed out that your being upset doesn't justify your actions, first off.
I would question "being upset all the time" and "constant disappointment"... the first is awfulizing, the second is magnification. Neither of which will be beneficial to your stated goal, which is your relationship with your boyfriend. You're ramping up demands and stress on somebody with PTSD... that usually doesn't end well for either of you.

Nataly87... the fact is that in a partnership, both parties have personal responsibility for the relationships dynamic. Til you cross that bridge and realize that you are exacerbating and escalating your relationship with your attitudes, unrealistic demands and expectations, abusive manner, and triggering your PTSD boyfriend by keeping a volatile and unsafe atmosphere for him to be in.... yeah he might well kick you to the curb and you'll lose him.

There are some supporter videos that might be a good thing to watch if you really want to break the cycle and keep your boyfriend. Here's the link: Link Removed

 

[Lanes]

I don't understand why you would want to be with someone who is a disappointment, it is genuinely baffling me.
I'm quite a mentally healthy person and that phrase would cripple me if my partner thought that of me - it's such a loaded and emotive word.
He doesn't owe you anything. You have no right to be disappointed, it's your choice to stay.

What's the point in this? You'll end up destroying each other.
Accept or let go.