New and Looking for Further Understanding

[SOB]

Hi, everybody.I'm new here, for those of you that could not figure that out.I've had PTSD for several years now. Just recently I have been officialy diagnosed. Today, has been a rough day, some of the emotions have been running through my mind and I've been depressed. Not quite sure what to write here... at the moment. Right now I'm angry, I'm sad, miss my ex girlfriend, looking for a savior, could kick the crap out of a punching bag. I lost practically everything. Yet, I know most of that is just in my mind and thats not the truth. Don't know how to move forward. ...a little free writing here...Glad, I'm here and I hope someone can show me around.

 

[patrick]

Hi SOB,

Let's see...sad, angry, alone/lonely, confused, and a little hope. Sounds like PTSD all right. If you are missing your ex-girlfriend, I would guess the end of that relationship might have had something to do with your recent diagnosis. That was the case for me, anyway. Not sure what's happening for you as far as treatment goes, but I hope you have some kind of support out there. This is a pretty good place to be. There is lots of information here, and some people who do understand what you're going through. Sometimes that can help as much as anything.

Hope to see you again and get to know you a little.
Pat

 

[Monarch]

look around, talk to people and read the threads, you will learn alot, the people are good here we are all just trying to find our way.

 

[Luthien]

Hi SOB,
Welcome to the forum. For now I recommend looking around the site, seeing what it is all about, and getting to "know" some of us.

When you are ready, talking about your trauma, and your feelings are good ways to help us get to know you, so that we can lend support and advice. You can also bring up any issues you have that you'd like some imput or advice on.

I hope you find what you're looking for. This forum is a great place to find help and advice, or just some validation. However, like anything, you get what you put in.

Take care.

 

[SOB]

Patrick, Monarch, Luthien,

Thanks guys for the comments. When I am ready, I may begin to open up a little bit, etc.

The people on here seem good and well worth the while. And, I'm sure the moderator works hard too. So far, I've been a little turned off to the site. I want to be here but I get a warning on the very first post I write, telling me I did something wrong. That was not a good first impression. Considering there are trained people on this site that have dealt with much larger things.

Thank you and regards,

 

[patrick]

Hey, I hope you keep coming back. I think the warnings are sort of automatic. We all get them from time to time for some minor infractions. Not a big deal, though I can understand how you would feel getting one on your first post. This is a really good place to get information, support, insight, etc.

 

[fin]

Hi I got one on my first post too....it isnt a personal thing, although it can feel like it.
If you just keep going, read the info. and faqs. it is clear that it isn't personal.

If you can get over the initial daunting steps - and you have, it will get better.

This is such a good place to learn so much more about PTSD, getting help, building confidence and coping with the things that come up.
Hope to see you back
~fin

 

[SOB]

Thank You For The Welcome!

Thank you for the messages.I will be back again and look forward to speaking with many of you. This seems to be a good place to be.I do have one suggestion. And, I'll keep this short and brief.Making the first few steps while having PTSD can be very difficult. So I think this is appropriate to say now. Making that first step to seek help with ptsd can be like punching through a brick wall with bare knuckles. Then on this site for instance, you think you got through and you recieve a message asking you what the heck you are doing. At least thats the way it can be perseived. Many people on here have been abused, physically, verbally and emotionaly. Don't mean to state the obvious. So, with that said. Changing the automatic warning system to something short and VERY friendly can potentialy help Many more people get through the first barrier and achieve access to their well needed support, with like minded people. Thank you for the site, and I look forward to speaking with many of you and seeing you around the boards!

 

[patrick]

Good to see you back. I'm looking forward to getting to know you a little better.
Pat

 

[kaydee]

New too it all after nearly two years - aggressive behaviour

I just want to introduce myself

I am Kaydee

I have been living with someone with PTSD for nearly two years and thought I was getting some idea of how to live with it BUT i realized two nights ago how wrong I was.

I feel I have tried but keep getting told I havent that I insane and that I am passive aggressive. I am at a loss as to where to turn next. I joined this forum to hopefully gain some more understanding.

I was threatened by my partner with a knife the other night, my partner has no recollection of the event and has even told me that I put the knife mark into the door to make her look bad.

I dont know what to do, her family believes her version of events I am worried about her and would appreciate any suggestions.

:crazy:

 

[cragger65]

Hey SOB, I'm glad you're going to stick it out. See you around soon.

Dave

 

[notjustfriends]

LOL... when I first came back here I got an automated warning because I did not capitalize my thread.. was completely unintentional but I got very upset about it... so know that you are in good hands here, the moderators are just trying to establish some boundaries to help us all.

I think the worst thing in the world is to post your heart and then log back in to see you have received a warning! So I can relate... but keep in mind the moderators only have the best intentions.

I too, lost my significant other to PTSD. He just couldn't handle it anymore. It is hard because, in recovery (at least for me), it is hard to distinguish PTSD from pure heartbreak. I've only known about my husband's feelings for 3 weeks and each day I feel like another dagger has been thrown.

Naturally, I want to get onboard the "goodship lollypop" and be all positive and healthy and eager to work with PTSD... but I will admit I am faced with anger, resentment, sadness, and sleepliness since my husband left.

So how to deal with it? I do not know. I am hoping others here can give guidance :). I try to eat well and exercise, but I have days where I am not so good and give in to the bottle (sorry everyone, it is not frequent, but so darn hard).

Best of luck to you, and hope to see you here more often,

NJ