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[Jimmy1]

Mate, no need to justify yourself. I have been hanging around the forum for a couple of years now. In the end, you can tell the bullshitters, and even you will be able to tell once you have been here a while. I am glad you still have pride, a lot of the blokes on here including me have lost that. Not in my career, but some of the things i have seen and done. I hope we can help you out if you need it and if you feel you can offer anything, your welcome.

Jimmy

 

[Zipperhead]

Red Devil, you are pulling heart strings here! Timmies is Gods gift to Canadians. The company was started by a Hockey Player. The stores are nearly shrines in our culture. So next time your in town we'll go for a cup of joe and I'll teach ya what coffee is suppose to taste like.

 

[Ned]

Hello Darren. Lots of useful stuff here. And sensible company, too. Hope it helps you find some peace.

 

[reddevil1111]

Zip, I drove big rigs taking items from America to a defence contractor in Canada. Ive been to Tim's and I know the shrine and all. That coffee make my poor tummie turn over. lol I know how your forced to love it or your not part of the maple leaf society and all.
Sorry, I found most Canadian Women are completly crazy and the coffee bad. But the people were pretty nice for foreginers.... :)

 

[reddevil1111]

BTW? Your kinda lucky you have some photos of your time in combat. We didnt think to have cameras out. And no reporter was aroud either. I wish I had a camera record what I saw. Maybe it would help me get over it?

Anyway- pretty cool. But your fly is undone :)

 

[reddevil1111]

I keep trying to steal your welcome post. Sorry about that. but something has been driving me nuts. Your comment about those who have not been in combat being in here and messing around and jimmy saying that you can spot them.
So ive been getting pretty worked up about others just coming in here and running off a tthe mouth when they dont beling. It has me really mad and up set. So I have to ask...I guess I just didnt /dont see it. Jimmy, everyone I pretty much see in here I can say has the beast. Who would want to pretend they have this problem? And why would we put up with them being in here? Im off on a new tangent I guess. But its getting me even more upset.

 

[Sarg]

The problem these days, except for us, who cares??? I am amazed at the people I run across who never heard of PTSD.

Sarg

 

[Jimmy1]

Red,

There are some sick puppies in this world. Some have nothing better to do than to troll websites and forums wanting to belong. The combat is the difference. We have had people with PTSD on here that have not been in a combat zone and are not military but think they belong. They just don't fit in and some things they say don't make sense. You can tell a fellow soldier generally, it's all about conditioning.
You also get the jerks who think we tell gory, war stories when all we want to do is forget.
All the news footage and video in the world does not prepare you for the real thing. You can never rid yourself of the smell of burnt flesh or the expression on a dead persons face.

I am off on a tangent now, sorry Darren, for stealing your intro. But there are always people pretending to be who they are not in this world, and they will never leave us alone

 

[Anglesachse]

........ You can never rid yourself of the smell of burnt flesh or the expression on a dead persons face........

The last total break down I had that landed me in the clinic, had took me to the point where after a bottle of Tully, and half a Glenn, I set fire to anything I could find with my name or picture on it. The wife managed to save a few things of which 2 were fotos of my time in green, a troop foto from 1987, my passing out parade (Back when the world was still in order), the other is from inside a M109 in the gulf while on a fire mission. Other than the memories in my head, I now have nothing to help deal with my problems. I`d love to sit, look and remember those days we spent with good mates.

Unfourtunatly the Beast can push us that far, that we just don`t want to have existed. My biggest problem other than the aggresion is the feeling that I don`t deserve to be alive. after 2 attempts in the last 2 years, its a real big struggle to keep the thoughts in check. Even in a clinic full of f*cked up wiered people, you still get looked at as if you have 3 heads once they find out you tried to take your own life. But the realy wiered thing is, I was one of the sane f*ckers LMAO now thats a screwed up Society!

 

[Jimmy1]

We all have to find something to hang to, something to keep us going.
I want to be able to talk to my grandchildren. But you know, sometimes it all seems to hard, and it's like nobody understands, except the guys and gals here. We might not be able to offer a way to quieten the demon, but at least we can feel we belong somewhere

 

[william]

I know how it feels to not want to do anything. Problem is between that and serequel, I got fat. gained up to 300 pounds and some times I just have no desire to exercise. Hang in there DD, you will make it if you only hang in there.

RLTW

 

[Jimmy1]

William, I battled with extra weight, high cholesterol, and a dicky ticker for 4 years. I had to change everything. I even found a medication which did not have as much weight gain. It's all motivation buddy, plus the fact your not 21 anymore. You can do it