New in my life due to medical treatment

[KA60]

Definitely I can't change him. I feel safe with my dogs. I did not feed into his chaos today. I definitely have been part of the problem arguing crying yelling at him.

 

[KA60]

The vietnam sniper veteran when we talk tells me the things he went through but how he survived that he still has his hair etc. He does not speak like my husbsnd at least not when we talk. It is different. I know he is just processing his trauma.

 

[Movingforward10]

You want/need your husband to change. He has said and shown you that he won't.
So unless you leave, it remains the same.

I think you have a hard decision to make.

Can you try a trial separation to see how that feels?

If you left, is there a way of working out custody of your dogs? And how you get half the value of the RT?
Those things may take time.

Is ending the relationship something you can sit down and work out with him? Or would that not be safe? I worry about how he can't hear you and whether that is safe or not.

 

[KA60]

Ok. Thank you. I have a hard decision to make. I don't expect or want him to change. Maybe Magical thinking but I have friends finally here a church to attend. I am not sure it is safe to leave. I have activities friends here outside of my marriage. Rent is very high - place on my own..He has medicaid and it is only a matter of time before he is uninsured. He will not get VA health care benefits. Trial separation? I will research that. I know this sounds like excuses. Perhaps it is. He makes so much less than me. The rv is in both our names. We just got a newer car. It is in my name only. And our dogs. My dogs. I really confronted him hard yesterday that these are his beliefs. I don't expect him to change but I think perhaps the consequences of his behavior are perhaps registering. I am also not sure the rv is worth much. It is in good shape. The rise in homelessness especially our age group- he is 63 I am 65- is alarming..safe in terms of leaving as in would he threaten me? Not sure but I don't think so to the point where I would have to call law enforcement? I don't think so. My dogs the consequrnces to us all of separating. That is putting a pause with me. Financial ..homelessness. dogs being euthanized or taken to shelter where the same outcome would probably occur. I need to talk with him again. How can we remain together but in no way can our relationship involve or allow his beliefs etc effecting us. Have been researching thesd types of personalities. Techniques included my safety at all times disengaing with him anytime this comes up my own friends and activities. I also think his self image self worth took a big hit. He does not think he is a very good man anymore..He has many good traits. This has hit me hard so I get negative too in to black and white thinking with him that is not completely accurate. Then this issue with my larger breast size from medical treatment for post menopausal issues and his increased attention to them. Yikes! I like to think critically put STOP pause on things like this to always for better decision making. I am the one changing. He knows it. I know he will not..Thank you. Be grateful for any more comments etc .

 

[Movingforward10]

It all is very difficult.

I suppose: what do you want?

Staying with someone because you are worried about how they will manage, isn't going to help you as it might keep you stuck in a situation that isn't good for you.

I'm sure there are good parts of him. Most people aren't all good or all bad. Relationships have their ups and downs.

Which comes back to: what do you want from the relationship? And can you get it or not? And if not, what do you want to do?