New therapist, new psychiatrist

[Pauline]

I finally met with my psychiatrist on Saturday and I opened up to him about how I feel so scared in my body and how I feel like I want to be four years old and have a bear to comfort me, I think my voice became childish when I told him and I had to write it down, now I feel like I wished I didn't because i don't want him to look at me like I'm a complete weirdo person who loves cuddly toys and wants to be four instead of 25! He introduced me to my new therapist but I'm very against seeing a therapist I can get very attached and I don't want to depend on her but I trust him with everything! It was really hard for me to open up to him and I'm not sure why I feel this way I don't know if I was sexually abused when I was younger but I feel as though something traumatic happened to me and my way of loving bears is a protection for my body. Maybe he already can tell what the problem is but I just don't want to feel this way when I'm 30 years old. I went to a psychic once and she told me that my dad sexually abused me and that's why I act like a child but I don't know if I believe her because I still live with my dad and he seems very loving and caring! Also how do I bring that's up with my psychiatrist I've been around a lot of hospitals and I'm thinking my trauma could be around there I'm only mentioning this because I lost my memory at 16 and then afterwards the child regression started and it hasn't gone away anyway maybe someone can point me in the right direction I don't know.
Peace and love X

 

[EveHarrington]

Why do you think your psychiatrist would judge you for wanting stuffies? If he’s a good doctor don’t you think he’d have compassion for you and understand where this behavior comes from?

If you want to change, please give a therapist a try.

BTW there is nothing wrong with wanting stuffies as an adult. I have 4 right now. (See avatar, lol.)

 

[blackemerald1]

I went to a psychic once and she told me

JMHO here but psychic's are just rubbish, scamming human beings who don't give a toss about you and you'd do well to ignore everything you were told.

I finally met with my psychiatrist on Saturday and I opened up to him

^^ You can put a lot more trust in your psychiatrist. He will not think negative things about you - that is you thinking negative things about yourself and you thinking he thinks what you think! Not so! It was very wise of you to tell him about yourself otherwise he just cannot help. So well done!

If he wants you to have some therapy from a T and is recommending one person in particular I'd suggest you give it a serious try out.

Nothing wrong with stuffed toys imho either!

 

[MyWillow]

The only reason I don’t have stuffed toys is because I have real live cats and dogs ?

 

[Pauline]

Thanks guys it's just when I feel four years old in my body that's I really want cuddly toys and I know why it's because it makes me feel safe in my body it's just when I don't feel four and I am back to my normal self that's when I worry because the feeling doesn't feel right and at 25 I don't think about having them at all it just makes me a little sad and distressed thanks for helping me out X

 

[Skywatcher]

Early on in my therapy, after having my first really bad week, I snuck a stuffed animal into my session with me in a large purse. My T was perfectly fine with it and didn’t judge. It was nice to feel the soft fluff. I even sleep with a stuffed bear, always have, and my husband doesn’t mind.

The phychic did you a huge disservice to “plant” a false memory into you. Trust your heart on how you feel about your dad.

 

[whiteraven]

Why do you think your psychiatrist would judge you for wanting stuffies? If he’s a good doctor don’t you think he’d have compassion for you and understand where this behavior comes from?

If you want to change, please give a therapist a try.

BTW there is nothing wrong with wanting stuffies as an adult. I have 4 right now. (See avatar, lol.)

Just 4? :p