Hi Kaluki, I am new to the site but not new to being a guinea pig. My own personal experience with prescription meds has not been positive but that does not mean it cannot work for you. I have been 'disabled' from my 'normal' life for 4 years now. Anxiety is horrible and it tends to make you feel like an idiot when others around you are witness to your behaviour. When it happens, I feel like I am having an out of body experience :(
I could not handle the side effects of the meds and have now turned to medical Marijuana. It is a life saver for me but is still not a socially accepted therapy. I don't care. Despite what people think, it greatly helps my motivation and has a calming effect. There are days where I do nothing but smoke because if I didn't, I would get very wound up. I have a large dog who forces me out of my house. I feel best in nature, away from people. The downside is, I am now completely isolated from family/friends. There is a huge lack of understanding and compassion regarding this illness, so instead I prefer the company of strangers. At least with strangers, even if you have an acute attack, the likelihood of seeing them again is minimal. ..call it self preservation. It is no where near a perfect solution but it is what works for me, at the moment.
Long story. ..sorry :( bottom line - try whatever resonates with you. Listen to your intuition. Try not to doubt yourself. Best wishes,
Sincerely, Stacy xo