Hello - I'm Aunnika. Started therapy and learned I have PSTD. Also learned there are some people more likely to develop PTSD than others. Apparently, my childhood evironment/upbringing predisposed me and my current symptoms are from two seperate traumatic episodes in my life (at least at this point in therapy :rolleyes:)
One episode: Witnessing a brutal rape of a person I knew, powerless to stop it, my life threatened at the time it occurred and after I testified in court
Second: Serious Auto Accident (I was not supposed to live). At first I did not remember the accident or the events leading up to it. Had some help with recall of events leading to the accident (still cloudy). But I am unable to remember most of it. I have flashbacks from both of these, lessened a bit over time.
All this time I believed it was normal and was really just happy I was alive and survived both experiences. Now that I am older, my symptoms are effecting my ability to recover from some experiences. Also having trouble with identifying my feelings about my emotions - Very delayed.
I am a Nurse and I live in the Northern Bay Area of California
Nice to find this site and others to learn from and share. Nice to not feel alone with some of my Symptoms.
One episode: Witnessing a brutal rape of a person I knew, powerless to stop it, my life threatened at the time it occurred and after I testified in court
Second: Serious Auto Accident (I was not supposed to live). At first I did not remember the accident or the events leading up to it. Had some help with recall of events leading to the accident (still cloudy). But I am unable to remember most of it. I have flashbacks from both of these, lessened a bit over time.
All this time I believed it was normal and was really just happy I was alive and survived both experiences. Now that I am older, my symptoms are effecting my ability to recover from some experiences. Also having trouble with identifying my feelings about my emotions - Very delayed.
I am a Nurse and I live in the Northern Bay Area of California
Nice to find this site and others to learn from and share. Nice to not feel alone with some of my Symptoms.
