Nightmare About My T

[RaiseYourGlass]

So I've been seeing my therapist for a really long time and I like her and trust her and everything, but I'm really really nervous to go see her this week. Last night I had a dream that she raped me. I don't know how to handle it. I'm not upset with her at all and I don't really feel like I trust her any less, but the idea of sitting in her office and her looking at me makes me feel like I'm going to throw up. I also don't know if I should bring it up with her. I'm just a mess right now. Any advice would be greatly greatly appreciated!

 

[darrenS]

i would definitely bring it up , it sounds like your hitting some tough issues and this may be the result of that , but either way , you state you trust your T and not addressing it would be like constantly sitting on a nail. Do yourself a favor and address it before it gains a life of its own

 

[Sandstone]

Isn't it horrible the way our dreams can add to the distress we already experience? I'd expect a dream like that to mean you feel violated or forced to open up in some way. Have you started to expose new, vulnerable areas in therapy?

I agree you should bring it up. The vividness will probably wear off in time, but your reaction is understandably strong so she needs to know what is happening, and to be able to support you through it.

 

[falling_wave]

When I'm not sure about telling my T the specifics of something I generally would say something like "I've bee having nightmares where people that I really trust and care about who have given me no reason not to trust them do really bad things to me and I'm pretty confused". That way the theme is there without making it weird or confrontational and if you feel safe to say more you can but it gets it off your shoulders.

 

[shimmerz]

Perhaps she is touching on some really intimate stuff for you. You aren't responsible for your dreams. It is not a poor reflection of who you are by having such a dream. I would say by sharing with her you may actually develop an even deeper trust with her which may open up a whole new level of healing. Good luck!