Nightmares About Watching People Being Murdered

[Lady of Longbourn]

I not expecting my nightmares to be analyzed. I am just hoping that talking about it will help ease them. Talking about things really helps me.

I keep seeing people getting murdered in my dreams. Horribly too. People being shot in front of me and having to bury them, seeing murdered people. I've had so many I don't remember them all.

As far as I know, I've never actually seen someone being murdered. Don't even like watching that in movies and I don't watch crime dramas.

But it's getting so exhausting waking up with new imagines in my head. A few days ago, in my dreams, the new Wendy's TV ad girl was murdered. Spent the whole dream thinking "Please don't turn her around, I don't want to see it all."

I hope talking about it helps or maybe I will have more of them tonight. Anyone else have these kinds of nightmares?

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I should also say that I have had nightmares of watching myself be murdered but I wasn't scared, just accepted it and waited for it.

I don't normally have nightmares about my main trauma's (sexual abuse) anymore more. If I do, I am usually being chased down but now they have changed into me fighting back, me getting help or some really funny twist to the dream. Like when I ended up laughing at my rapist in my nightmare and he didn't scare me anymore.

 

[franciemarnie]

I so feel for you. Sleep is supposed to be restorative. Not when we're having dreams like that. I wish I knew a recipe to turn them off.

For years I had a indescribably horrible dream where I learn I murdered a 16 year old girl and she was buried beneath a tree in the backyard where I grew up. Then one day, after years of this sickening dream, I realized the girl I murdered and buried was me. I never had the dream again.

I wish it were that simple for you. And I hope at least you get a break tonight.

 

[macca]

At the moment my nightmares are of the "being chased by murderers" variety. Or the other night, it was a T-rex who chased me for aeons. But I've had dreams in the past where other people were in danger (usually my family), and I was trying to save them. I've had a similar dream to franciemarnie, when I could not get this terrifying dead woman to stop following me, and finally tricked her into getting stuck in a hollow tree - when I woke up and thought about it, I realised that she was me. And like franciemarnie - that dream never came back.

I hope talking about your dreams does the trick and gives you what you need - sleep, but also some peace.

 

[Melody Lindsay]

The night tremors don't stay for ever it's all part of the ptsd. I remember I use to wake up drowned in sweat.

I understand not being able to watch horror, it's been a while for me and I still can't handle blood.

 

[arfie]

I tend to have serial dreams where my next dream picks up where the last one left off. With good dreams this is gooder than cable tv. Entertaining enough to make sleep something to look forward to.

With nightmares it presents an extra challenge. I either work through the underlying issues or there is another round of sleep deprivation in my foreseeable future. No fun at all... I believe I have worked through the underlying issues -well enough, at least- when the nightmares stop.

I have been through several rounds of witnessing murders, torture, etc. The nightmares stopped when I linked them to verbal persecutions. I have a profound tendency to create clever cuts and digs which can be unnecessarily hurtful. "people like that..." "he is just a ..." "women like her always ..." "you think you can ...."

So it is for me. Dreams are as personal as the human experience gets.
Hope you find your way to a restorative sleep.

 

[Ghostybear73]

I have dreams like that as well. The only time it wasn't me being chased down and caught was when I dreamt my daughter was being hurt like I was at her age. I take meds that are supposed to help with the bad dreams, but they still leak through.

I wish there was an easy solution, but I imagine the further we get into processing our trauma, the less frequent and violent our bad dreams will get. At least that's what my therapist says! :)

 

[DMerish]

When I was a very little girl, I had a dream three or four times that involved me physically fighting with two people who were older than me and in authoritative positions. I never won the fight in those dreams. I don't recall how they ended now, but I remember that I felt very frustrated when I woke up each time after having that dream. (maybe because I hadn't won?).

I stopped having that dream. More accurately, I think that dream morphed into a different dream, where I make the two people die and then hide their bodies. When the wrath of my worst PTSD symptoms occur, this dream revisits me still - some 50 years later after the first one. It is the exact same dream. I wish there was a way that I could evoke the dream consciously. I would dig up the bodies and lay them for vultures to pick at - so every last particle was transformed into food - or simply allowed to become part of the elements again.

Ayesha,

I'm sorry you're not getting restful/regenerating sleep. I hope those dreams give you a break sometimes, so you can at least regain a little energy and peace.

Drew

 

[flutegirl1996]

I keep having dreams about people dying/being murdered in gruesome ways, but also monkeys. Hope it gets better for you soon.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I am usually being chased down but now they have changed into me fighting back, me getting help or some really funny twist to the dream. Like when I ended up laughing at my rapist in my nightmare and he didn't scare me anymore.

It the nightmare, I was at my mother's house and I was younger then I am now.

I was expecting him to find me and hurt me I guess. He really likes cars. And in my dream, I saw him drive by my mother's house but in a Reliant Robin. Does anyone know those cars? One wheel in the front, two in the back...if you turn to hard the whole car falls over.

So it's supposed to be a nightmare. He is supposed to be hurting me and raping me but instead I am laughing! Laughing at him, his stupid car and just laughing. After that he couldn't touch me. He tried too but I just kept laughing and he just sort of faded away.

The dream still makes me laugh.

 

[Bees Are Awesome]

Ayesha -

So sorry you are having such horrible dreams. I can relate and have horrible violent nightmares fairly often. I wake up in a panic and very disoriented. It takes a bit for my system to realize that I am at home, in bed, alone and okay.

Though I have no words of wisdom for you, I wanted to say that I'm thinking good thoughts for you and hope your nightmares stop soon.

 

[Recovery Girl]

I had nightmares similiar when I was going though the worst of the ptsd. My therapist said dreams are symbolism. The girl she murdered, yes, it was me,,,,but more important.....it symbolized my childhood being murdered.