Not Sure Where To Post. I Am Restricting My Fluids Because I'm Terrified Of Going To The Toilet Help

[super_saiyan]

I too am curious why you will not use an incontinence tool. Seems like it could save you a lot of gr...

Because I'm scared of breaking my limit of going to the toilet just once in the morning. I don't know.

I guess I'm asking for the impossible. I'm so sorry.

 

[void]

Because I'm scared of breaking my limit of going to the toilet just once in the morning. I don't kn...

@super_saiyan
I sense frustration in you with how some User comments are coming across.
This is understandable. It is ok. You are ok:hug:
I believe the intent of all posters is honorable and their fear for you is making them sound cross.

 

[void]

The dietician I'm working with has agreed to slow down the fluid increase, so at the moment I'm at...

Your issue is complex.
It is all of those things you mention and maybe more.

Within your mind, view this problem as having layers.
Layers of self-defense, of pain, of fear, of grasping for a sense of control.
I believe that the OCD(though it is very real) is not the core problem...is an attempt at coping.
This is ok.

The core issue imo is that your oral opening was used in a way that traumatized you and created profound helplessness and suffering.
This is the case with your genital region as well.

KEY : You are attempting to cope with the loss of control that you experienced with these parts of your body when you were violated.
You have created extreme control(rules/limits) because your past made you feel NO CONTROL at all.
Like a pendulum you have swung from 0 control to extreme control.
You will find a way to return to the middle point...to BALANCE:tup:

I know you will.
I believe in you.:hug:

 

[The Albatross]

This is an unrealistic method of control... one that has an overall physical detriment. One that too complicates over all not just mental/emotional health.

Stick with it and this is a serious issue.

 

[Neverthesame]

Nope, not cross at all.

I can tell this is an extremely difficult thing for you to discuss @super_saiyan I applaud your bravery, to speak about it with complete strangers.

When I have to discuss difficult things with anyone, especially if I am asking for advice. Whether it be doctors, nurses, psychologists or regular people. I prefer it when they leave the emotion out of it, as I find I become very over reactive to whatever emotion I am reading from them. I don't want to feel like I am being a pain in the arse, nor do I want to be a pity case.

Please don't read irritation or anything negative from what I write. I am simply choosing my words and phrasing with enormous care. The fact that this is a text based communication, keeping innuendo and vague assertion out of it is usually a good idea. The last thing I want to do is frighten you off, or make you feel undeserving of compassion. Nor do I want you to feel as though you are a hopeless case, as I don't believe in such a thing.

When it comes to things like this, you can only progress as fast as you can progress. Trying to to shove you into doing something is really not going to help. Though being a nurse yourself, I am sure you understand very well how serious your situation is. This fact does undoubtedly cause some emotion to slip through, despite the effort to hide it.

But do understand that I know full well how difficult dealing with this condition (ptsd) and the other comorbid conditions that often accompany it. Even though I don't have the same reaction to it as you, I most certainly don't expect you to jump on the first suggestion, then magically be fixed. If it were easy, no one would be here.

Compassion is the only place I am speaking to you from. So don't worry about it.