I can't begin to describe the magnitude of how session went yesterday and the entire evening all the way till at least before I took my meds. I've switched when with her but mostly by body, and extremely quiet until yesterday. A few were a little more vocal but also and it's so sad and a million other emotions I have no frigging clue what to make sense of. I never reveal my face or faces but one of them sucked her finger, like she did so so long ago. I have absolutely no thought or memories that led up to why she would of done it, just automatic. I'm scared, the reality of whatever world we live in is so so messed up and getting more foggy