General Off To Talking 2 Minds Tomorrow....

[wife of]

Well we are off to the talking 2 minds programme in the morning and I am as nervous as hell,sick to the stomuch and very jumpy.

I'm not sure why.

I guess I have waited so slong and fought so hard to get someone,anyone to sit up and say "yes,we will help you",that I am scared as to what path it will put us on.

So many variables and scenarios have been running through my head of late.

Yet again it is time to put myself into tiger wife mode and feel the fear yet do it anyway....

 

[amethist]

You will be fine wife of, once you meet Sharon, all your worries will fade.

Ernie her husband is a good guy too, though who else will be there tomorrow I have no idea.

My husband is still working on what they taught him, but wants to go back some time soon, to work on somethings he should have done before.

I may have said this before, but you will probably find you will enjoy the experience yourself. So go with an open mind and you may be pleasantly surprised.

Take care and stop worrying, it will be fine.

 

[wife of]

I know I should not be worried and I activly try not to worry as negative emotions are pointless but all day I've had this slow building anxiety that is working it's way up to sheer terror pf the unknown.

The last time I felt like this other than during the recent obvious occasions would of been aged 12 and not wanting to go back to school on a monday and face the bullies. It is nonsensical but I guess I have been so strong for so long that the idea of giving it up to someone else and letting go for four days is odd.

Even though there have been numerous admissions where someone else has had the responsibility of him,this will be the longest he has had responsibility for himself without me right next to him for a long time.

I know I will be in the same building and I wonder how much attention I will be able to put into working on me when in reality I will be sitting with one ear open to listen for signs of anything happening elsewhere....

Need to try and turn this into excitement and hope..

Off now to have a word with myself.

Will catch up with you all soon.:eek:

 

[amethist]

I see where you are coming from wife of, just remember some of them have been where your husband is right now, and Ernie was basically written off by the NHS. You would not know that to see him though.

Tell them how you feel when you have the first group meeting, tell them your own fears, then they will know where to start with you.

If your not coming on here tomorrow night with a bit/lot more spring in your step, I will be surprised.

 

[Toria]

Really, really good luck - I will be thinking of you both... and looking forward to hearing all about it afterwards.

Love x

 

[KP the nut]

(((wife of & H))),

I wish you both peace and healing. You will be in my thoughts.

(((HUGS)))

 

[amethist]

I have had you both on my mind all day, knowing you will be feeling a relief of the understanding they have, and the calmness they instill.

 

[amethist]

This must be day 3 of your course wife of, and as you have not posted since Thursday, I am assuming all is going well.

Looking forward to hearing all about your experience too.

 

[Eleanor]

Hoping all is going well wifeof (and H). Sending peace and healing vibes from CA.

 

[wife of]

Ok....so I'm back.

For myself this weekend has been wonderful.

The chance to mix with a few ex-forces lads and lasses as well as one of thier main practitioners being a fellow wife of,was in itself very theraputic.

Thier therapies are very much aimed at enabling one to heal oneself and I have been amazed at how similar the practices they promote are to my own personal philosophy.

Many of the things being "taught" are things that I have instinctivly taught and developed in myself that help me to live as positively as possible.

I learnt a few new tricks and had some help with a grief issue that was weighing heavily on me for many years. The peace this has brought me has enabled me to envision a much brighter future and heal a hole in my soul.

Now, on the other hand.....hubby.....hmmmm....well he did very well to make it through all four days.

He does not at this point think he has had much benefit from the sessions and to be fair the practitioners he worked with did find that the amount of medication he is on seemed to be preventing him from fully connecting with thier concepts. However medicated or not I am not sure he would connect with them as the philosophies they promote are so different from anything he has ever encountered before and to quote one of thier own practitioners " the first time a big burly squaddies hears this stuff they just think....F**K that,thats too fluffy for me,they're all fruitbats".

However, it seemed undeniable to me that the methods employed have helped many people both forces and civvy.

We will stay in touch and hopefuly when the meds come down a bit we may be in a position to try it again.

I have been told that for myself I am welcome to come back and try some of thier more advanced stuff as although I needed to sort some stuff out in my head this weekend , it appears that I have a very well rounded self belief system . Given all we have been through its quite amazing how well ordered my brain is.

The weekend certainly bolstered me and reassured me that I am on the right track as far as helping hubby to help himself goes.



And...If anyone is thinking of trying them out,make sure you get them to give you a reiki session....bliss:)

 

[Eleanor]

I am glad you got so much out of it! And not at all surprised that they would find you both "ordered" in the brain and "well rounded!"

Hoping this is H's first baby step to a more sustained (and sustainable) healing path...

 

[Ladyhope Somerset]

((wife of))

Great to hear you got positive feedbback and reassurances. :tup::tup::D