On The Verge Of Memory

[jmni]

(I wasn't sure where to post this)

Do you ever feel like you are on the verge of a memory? I usually have illusions where I have people talking to me. They are very real but I know that they are in my head. But the things that they say are often quotations from different psychos I've encountered and abusers in my life time.

For me the memories have become all mixed together and now the product in the illusion is different people saying different things.

I think that because I now understand what is happening to me I am getting more clarity. I feel like these memories are going to come back to me.

Can anyone relate to this feeling? I wonder if there is anything I can do to bring the memories forward.

 

[SeanCharles]

Hmmm... Not sure if you've got me going "Ah ha!" In ways, what your describing is almost like a DID system (several parts coming together and your having an internal meeting. I do this regularly.

But the things that they say are often quotations from different psychos I've encountered and abusers in my life time.

I'm not percisely sure what is going with that, if What I am comparing is similar.

 

[jmni]

What is a DID system? I know that its the product of abuse, stalking, harassment. These illusion people talk to me. Sometimes they say something and perform an action. My mind can't remember who did that exactly in real life. It's as if the illusions are crossed over and mixing everything up so I can't identify what actually happened / who did what. Sometimes I feel like I can almost remember it exactly.