Panic Attacks Getting Worse....

[vhales]

Second week with no therapy and at my wits end.

Drank and drank and drank and drank on Friday night and then scrambled back to my parent's house. My only true place of safety. They called my husband as I was in a complete state and he came over.

Needless to say I feel absolutely awful for how I am treating the people who love me most.

I want to run away from everyone and everything and just be alone. That's what I deserve. How can I suppress the way I am feeling when it's now constant. I am so tired and have had enough of living like this. All I want is my life back. Although everyone on here says that I will get better and there is light at the tunnel I don't feel that somehow.

I am trapped in my own feelings, thoughts and fears and there is no escape. How can anyone expect to exist feeling like this?

I can't do this anymore.

 

[Queen Boudica]

(((((((((((((vhales)))))))))))) I wish I could say something to make it better. Can you make an emergency phone call to your counsellor?

Sounds like you are in the midst of a huge panic attack. It will subside, they always do. Wish I was at a more advanced stage to be able to offer you advice. But know, that it will get better.

 

[The Albatross]

(((vhales))) All I can do is wish you some peace. It's hard, I know. I been through it various times.