Pcych doc unavailable - attempts to refill early failed & flagged

[EveHarrington]

Do you think you could find another doc who would prescribe the Xanax? It sounds like you really do need it for physical reasons.

 

[KwanYingirl]

She’s going to continue it for now.

 

[Friday]

I mean I have serious tremors from it and Xanax and Geodon minimize it so that I can do my job which is using my hands delicately to slide a probe into hair follicles. Why she didn’t want to hear about it is beyond me, but every shrink I go to invalidates that. They refuse to read my medical records. I mean, isn’t that absurd??? I see the countries leading expert on gluteraldehyde damage to the brain. He’s always amazed at how I have overcome obstacles and can work.

@KwanYingirl That may be the way to go about it...

While Xanax is a psych drug, there are psych drugs that are prescribed for medical reasons rather than psychiatric reasons. If you get your Xanax written by your medical provider, that forces your Pdocs to have a medical conversation (with a peer, instead of you). While not common, it’s also not exactly uncommon. Parkinson’s, certain spinal injuries, etc. Whilst a patients depression, PTSD, etc. may very well be overseen by a Pdoc, the rx’s for their medical condition aren’t under their Pdoc’s purview.

Saying “I have a medical condition that requires this, write it for me.” is 77 kinds of suspicious.

“I have a medical condition that requires this, here’s my prescribing doctors number,” (in relation to what other medications are you taking, so they know for interactions, etc.) is the way most people go about it.

If your expert is out of state, it makes a lot of sense why you need a local provider to write it. But they will -usually- be a lot more accommodating when it’s a peer to peer convo confirming diagnosis & treatment, rather than working outside their speciality. Especially with a super addictive drug, on no more than a patients say so.

 

[KwanYingirl]

@Friday what you say makes sense to me. My primary doctor doesn’t want to step on my specialists toes as far as my chemical injury is concerned. When I go to an ER after bad assaults of pesticides or offgassing carpet, they don’t know what to do for me. I’m shaking like a leaf, my temp gets low, I’m puking on top of asthma attack. I will be seeing my Boston guy in April and I will ask him if not to prescribe it for me, I’d request him to write her a letter. Not that she’d read it anyway. I brought his records and she didn’t want to see them. You are right. I do take it for medical reason. If you could observe me having an overload of chemicals I present as a person trembling uncontrollably . I ask them for Xanax and oxygen and Benadryl. They comply. Thanks for your perspective. There’s a chance he would prescribe it for me. He treats his patients in a way that benefits them, not because we’re crazy.

 

[KwanYingirl]

Yeah. I’m definitely going to ask my MGH doc to write a letter clarifying my medical condition and how serious a problem I have from chemical irritants. And the only way I can stay employed is to continue with my regeime that’s been in place for 18 years. And I’m going to ask him to write a paragraph stating it is important to understand what happened to my body from my chemical exposure, because not doing so results in my inability to trust doctors that don’t understand what I need.

He’ll write an expert opinion letter I can keep a copy of.

 

[KwanYingirl]

I keep hoping to end this thread, but as I am surrounded by morons, the thread goes on. Last Thursday I met with new shrink, she was not friendly. There was no human connection. She had her agenda that took an hour and a half. I told her I had additional medical records from the neurologist and neuropsycholigist that diagnosed my brain deficits I now have as a result of my chemical exposure. She wanted nothing to do with them so of course I now hate her. She’s causing malpractice. No one can treat my mind without a thorough understanding of the organic damage I suffer from. Long story short, I made a negative impression of her for that and also the scented candle on her desk.
So I made it clear to her that I would be out of my Xanax today and when I called the pharmacy I was told no order had been sent. Here I f*cking go again. Just like the dude before her. I had an awesome Psychiatrist for fifteen years. He was wonderful, his office staff was wonderful. He tried to find alternatives to Xanax that would stop the tremors that I got from the chemical exposure. I emailed my primary doc, told him once again I am being ignored and what should I do. Ugh.

 

[KwanYingirl]

Still haven’t gotten a call from the new provider. I’ve been making calls all morning to shrinks in the area. Everyone’s got a 6 or more months wait. One woman I called answered her own phone and we had a brief chat. She’s going to call me tomorrow to give me time to see if my insurance will pay for telemedicine. Our sessions will be over the phone not face to face. I kind of like that idea so I am hoping she calls me back. She was pleasant. I have to be eligible under criteria to see if I can be managed that way.

 

[KwanYingirl]

Well, what a difference a good reiki session makes. My reiki master at one point, because she’s also my Shaman, sat at my head and held it in her hands. I was completely grounded, the feeling was awesome. Then she quiety called for all of my guides to come together to help me find a psychiatrist. One that will honor my journey, one that will not judge, one that has a pure heart. Then she continued the session in silence. I was soooo relaxed, I love reiki.

So out of the blue this afternoon I was thunderstruck with the realization that my previous doc was who I wanted. That it was my cognitive distortions that demonized him. That I felt ashamed for overusing my meds and that I deserved to be punished, that I wasn’t worthy of his time. But in that distorted view, I ran away. This is what I always do when I feel less than a slug.

So I called his office and asked for the soonest appointment and she said can you be here in a half hour we just had a cancellation. So off I went. I wasn’t nervous, I was determined to be honest and take responsibility for my actions. So he calls me in and is so kind and happy to see me and he said what is bothering you? And I just spilled my gut that I couldn’t get through to the office to get my meds okd by the pharmacy and I just figured I was not wanted as his client and I am embarrassed and ashamed that I overused my meds. Then he very calmly said that what I just did was a huge step forward and he’s so sorry I felt that way. He said he likes me and is very willing to support me whenever I need it. The week I had been calling, his office had no power or phone due to the blizzard. Many people couldn’t reach him. In fact he’s moving to a new town to get better technology (closer to me too).

Then he asked me how my grief has been, how have I been functioning since he saw me last. And I started to just sob. Between the tears I got out that I’m working and eating and sleeping but that I’m haunted by the wondering if she killed herself. And that it makes me so sad that she was alone. He gave me advice about that. It’s an assumption, but if in fact she did, it was her choice and I don’t have to feel responsible for not talking her out of it. When I told him what was wrong with her heart he said it’s more likely that she had blood clots and died suddenly and quickly. I miss her so much.
So ends the saga of KYGs search for the best shrink. I should call on my guides more often.

 

[blackemerald1]

Hey @KwanYingirl - what a whirlwind turn around. I am very pleased your search is over and your honesty with this doctor has been received by him with grace.

I hope he continues to treat and support you without any further problems. :)

 

[scout86]

That needs a "superlative like"! Best thing I've heard so far today!