@ Sonic...you're not suicidally ideating all the time, as am I. Nor is standard psychiatric pharma currently not working for you, as is true for myself.
I'm also being monitored by a Pdoc and Tdoc.
I'm in a rather different situation.
...You may be bipolar and undiagnosed.
That would help explain your predisposition to psychosis.
In that case? This stuff could very well throw you into a manic episode.
If your psychosis includes lack of sleep for many days? Another red flag for bipolar 1
Sonic, I suggest you get clean, then maybe see about getting a diagnosis.
Speaking of? I am definitely feeling tense. A little angry.
I am not going to take the phenylpiracetam tomorrow, as it appears to be sending me over the edge into manic/mixed symptoms...in my case this is not happy fun mania, it's ragey, self-destructive, evil mania.
I may take a half-dose Friday, Sunday.
Since I DID respond amazingly well at first to this stuff, am going to switch to piracetam, that's a lot weaker.
I have it on order, it should be here by Monday.
I will take half the recommended dose for the first month, again, see how I react.
I'm going to keep on with the choline supplementation as/is. That alone's been shown to help bipolars in a small research study.
Since the phenylpiracetam works so fast as a mood lifter, it could be useful if I'm feeling acutely suicidal in the future, if used no more than when REALLY needed and for no more than two days in, say, a ten-day period.
But daily use? Nope :(
Most aggravating.