GreenFrog2, Since I also wake up during the night, I struggle when I'm having a nightmare or bad time. Since I can't use my legs right away, I'm rather stuck until I can semi-ground. So one thing was putting a positive affirmation on the lamp shade. I also have a positive on my trapeze over the bed. When I am able, I turn on the tape of Michael reading positive things to me. His voice is very soothing. For me it is, "I am safe" "I am healing" "I am a child of God". "He loves me".
The first two years I was sick, I had no money coming in, and no way to find another job. It was very very hard. I wiped out my savings, and sold just about everything I owned. The main thing I miss is my piano. But I wouldn't have had room here for it anyway, and this is the best handicapped apartment in my city.
My heart goes out to you all who are looking for work in this time frame. I think the majority of people today live in fear of being out of work. I wish I had a solution for you all. The only thing I can suggest is, take whatever you can get until you can relax enough to get something you really want. Don't allow yourself to let it get so bad that you can't work. Learn to live on less (not an easy thing, but it does bring peace of mind in the long run). Once you can accept this frame of mind, it gets easier, and it even gets better. Stress can kill a person. Physically, it can mess you up so bad. I have a degenerative brain disease, and when I was under stress I lost the ability to do everything, literally. I couldn't walk, talk, speak, or even think clearly. But as I've come to let go, I've gotten it back. The brain regenerates when you are not stressed. (Not normal stress, that's necessary to survive). Gosh, I hope this doesn't sound like a lecture.
Gentle, safe hugs to you all.
safenow