Prayer Requests

[VioletButterfly]

Hi @Tinyflame - thinking about you and sending prayers your way. Please take gentle care of yourself.


Today, I've been praying again for those who are enduring the fires in AU, for the firefighters and volunteers who are trying to help, for the military and first responders, for those in the way of the new virus outbreak and those fighting the flu here, for those in our community here at the Forum who are suffering and still trying to heal, for those who have harmed me, for my dad and aunt who are suffering, and for guidance and protection for myself as I try to navigate this dicey juncture in my life. I heard songs about overcoming today and hope that is a sign that I and everyone else will be able to overcome the challenges we are now facing. God bless us all and may He cover us with His grace. ?

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you so much @VioletButterfly , I really appreciate it. :notworthy::hug: Well I heard at about 8 pm things went better than I thought, but nothing worse than on top of it being dragged in & triangulated. Well there is worse, stressing & worrying over others' welfare, and wondering how I'd get a change of clothes & stay up in a coffee shop all night before work tomorrow. Which I am (also) very thankful I didn't have to do.

However, I did make my mind up that if it were resolved, I would not stew, repeat the words, or otherwise focus within the best of my ability on such, or let it be 'under my skin' waiting to surface in some form, or question or comment or thought. Forgive, I suppose? Though I must say, hearing how 'I should go kill myself', really causes harm tbh. But even wondering how much is truthful request, and how much is 'people in pain cause others pain', is too much thinking for me. I am sure I have done the same as well. But I do feel if I were reincarnated, I'd likely come back as a piece of swiss cheese. :(

I did read ~almost any 'what' can be endured if there's a 'why'. Ironically from NIetschze (sp?), who was an atheist. Which by that I don't mean an atheist can't be right or say something of equal or more value. Just that I can't imagine a 'Godless-why' being enough for me.

I also heard today 3 more people that I knew died the last few days, 1 I worked with and I was the only one that she really was close to outside family and whom I greatly loved (she was amazing), and one I knew 30 years who was wonderful, which was devastating on it's own. I pray for them but likely they prayed more for me.

Prayers for you and your family, dad & aunt. :hug:

 

[VioletButterfly]

Thank you @Tinyflame. ? I'm very concerned about my dad. I reached out again to my stepmom, but she's not even interpreting texts correctly and isn't responding to the very last one I sent her about Dad's upcoming endo appointment on 2/4. I don't think she's going to tell him or have him taken. I don't know what to do. I'm just very sad. I'm trying to keep my focus on myself though. I have so much going on and am still not well from the flu, that I need to try not be a CODA and just let them handle the situation. It's just so triggering because of what I went through with my mom. I don't know. I'm going to keep praying on this and giving it up to God to manage.

I agree that the "whys" in life can be crazy-making. I try to just let those go and accept. I've been working on forgiving and now I'm working on letting go of the feelings around what they did. So much betrayal, harm, abandonment, awfulness.... It can never be explained to me in a way that makes any sense because I don't think like those people do/did, so it would be a wasted effort anyway.

I'm sorry for the losses you've been experiencing, and pray for peace for you around this and also around how others have been/are treating you that is so unacceptable and hurtful. You deserve better. I hope you know that. ?

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you @VioletButterfly , same for you. :hug: And I hope you feel better soon, ???? ????

Remember just because it was one way with your mom doesn't mean it will be the same with your dad. :hug:

 

[Tinyflame]

My sister is getting knee replacement surgery tomorrow. :unsure:

Thank you to all, xox.

 

[VioletButterfly]

Praying everything turned out well for your sister @Tinyflame. ?

Praying for my dad. I'm worried, but am trying to leave his care in God's hands for now as I try to take care of myself. Still feeling very tired and unwell. From what I read online, this can take a bit of time to move through. It's kind of like an "after-flu" syndrome. Thank you, I've never had the flu and when I get it, it knocks me down but good! Grrr. Anyway, praying for healing and strength to carry on. Thank you for your well wishes @Tinyflame. ?

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

I'm sorry I haven't been here for you guys...
I'm struggling...to say the least. I'm afraid of the fallout in my heart.

On Monday, in a text from my DIL, I learned that my 38 year old son was molested by my ex-husband...he was in our lives for about 5 years. I never had a clue... their marriage is dying...4 grandchildren in the wreckage... It has consumed every waking moment since. I won't tell him that I know.

Thank you in advance for your prayers!

 

[Tinyflame]

Oh @AngelkeeperJ , I'm so sorry. :cry: That is not your fault. :( :cry: Prayers for you and all. :hug:

@VioletButterfly thank you, and for you. So far so good for sis far as I know. :hug:

 

[VioletButterfly]

@AngelkeeperJ - I'm so sorry to read what has and is going in with your family. Praying for you.

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

Thank you @VioletButterfly ?
I'm doing better than I expected. No tears so far today... Spoke with my son and he sounds good. I really don't want him to know that I know...

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

Thank you so much @Tinyflame for your kind words. I "know" it's not my fault...but the guilt can be relentless...

 

[Tinyflame]

Well @AngelkeeperJ you will also have given him a good modeled example of what healing is like. :hug: