Sufferer Ptsd: Abuse/molested/abandonment

[MusicLover]

Hello All,

I came across this forum on Google and thought it might be a good idea to join a type of "support" group. :-)

Growing up I was abandoned by a few family members, abused mentally by some different family members and molested by a family friend.

I was diagnosed with PTSD and slight bi-polar about 6 years ago and am actually now working on myself. I have been through a few therapists who just sit there and listen, but I started seeing a therapist who I feel is actually making progress with me. At the same time this is the hardest thing I have been through in my entire life. I am getting to the point where I am so exhausted that it is hard to get out of bed some days and that it is hard to function at work because i feel like my mind is on data overload since I can't remember a lot of simple things and I second guess myself A LOT!

Anyway, I am just on here to understand PTSD better and to hear other peoples stories and their approach to life with PTSD. I look forward to hearing from everyone and feeling like I'm not alone.

Thanks!

 

[Diore]

Hi there, and welcome to the forum!

In my experience so far, this place is great as a support group. Lots of resources about PTSD, lots of compassionate people who can relate. And it's refreshing even just to have some social interaction with people to whom you don't have to explain yourself...

Hope you have a good time here. You aren't alone. ;)

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Hello and welcome to the forum. :)

I feel exhausted a lot too! This place is great for support and really helps ease your mind.

Take care.

 

[ronnalee]

Hello MusicLover. Welcome and make yourself at home. :whistling:
What kinds of music do you love? :)

 

[reallydown]

Welcome to the forum.

 

[MusicLover]

Thank You :-)
As far as music, anything really. When I was younger music always seemed to take me away to a different place and get me away from life. :-) Music has really helped me and I feel like emotions can be expressed through it was well.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Music really helps me too, MusicLover. Do you play anything?

 

[MusicLover]

Right now I am in a community college choir. With everything going on in my head I really can't seem to focus so that's getting me a bit frustrated at the moment. I also have self taught myself some piano and I want to expand on it but lately I have been getting to distracted to play/learn more.

 

[MusicLover]

Hopefully that makes sense...

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I also am self teaching myself the piano. I found a keyboard that has a bunch of music already on it. The keys light up to what notes you should be pressing, and it teaches you in steps so you can memorize it. Its great! I am learning fur elise, its so fun playing it. I also play the clarinet.

I know what you mean. For me...I don't play the clarinet very often. When I first learned to play, I was also being sexually abused. I had the chance to tell someone but didn't. Then I refused to play my escape anymore. I refused to even touch it. It brings up a lot of regrets and painful memories, so I don't play my clarinet very much...I miss it though. One day I guess...

Sorry for going on and on. :D