Ptsd Dares

[Sethe]

THIS is a good thread. I like it.

1. I want to learn to talk with my parents and not freak out. I'm sick of having my entire day or week ruined from this interaction.

2. I want to learn to be 'intimate' and not cry afterwards. This one has popped up lately and I have no idea why. I really wish I did.

3. I want to learn to trust people because I 'want' to, not because I feel like they expect me to. God I feel retarded writing that, but well, it's true.

 

[Turtle]

1. Trusting people.... even my carer I still expect him to leave or hurt me, and it's messed up that the longer he is around the more I think he will because that's what I expect when I finally let someone in that they WILL hurt me somehow

2. Stop being jumpy to loud sounds, touch, new people, old friends... being around people in general basically.

3. Go on spring break in the woods... again... without freaking out like last year. Ok that one is going to happen one way or another, don't have much choice it's happening in 7 days and 18 hours... not that I'm counting or anything...

 

[Innordinate]

My dare for tomorrow is to get out of bed

 

[Innordinate]

Also dare myself to like myself tomorrow... or maybe next week.. but sometime before the end of March.
How's that song go? Make your thoughts be nicer to yourself.. something like that.

 

[Grace11]

A I definitely have issues with food.

So I have this pattern of going without eating, sometimes for a couple of days. Then when I do eat, I eat so fast, like a starving dog(I probably look/act like one too)...but then after a few bites I'm full and can't eat anymore.

Me too on those points - it is actually a gauge to me on how stressed I am. If it's extreme, I cannot handle food, period. I can't even taste it, and I don't like it. If very hungry, I'll eat a small bit and then feel ill.

If I am "medium," I love food, but I will pay attention to what/how I eat.

The other end would be binge eating which I very rarely do anymore, but used to do in emotional stages, and gained 30 lbs at one point (oddly enough, during my engagement).

Emotional eater here, too.

 

[Froggie]

Froggie, is there anything you're doing to work on the startle response? ...I don't understand why people think it's funny to see. I think it's humiliating.

Hi Jadebear, with PTSD, it's really got worse, that's why I'm really frightened that I would hit someone. And rightly speaking, no, I've never thought of talking about this to my T or to my psy basically because the other issues were harder and more urgent to deal with.

Yes it can be funny, but for those who have ptsd ... I can understand why you say humiliating ... if people deliberately would do that to me, with my personality, I would get mad, not rage mad, but like lawyer mad and put the wise guys in a context like ... man get a life - loser ... peeved off today, will post in a while on how I feel today ....

 

[Froggie]

Actually I thought it was humiliating before I even knew I had PTSD.
It's humiliating because I have such an extreme reaction.....

Sweetie, you were brought up in such a hefty childhood, you had to be hypervigilant 30 hours / 24 hours. Being startle brings you back to what you lived through, it's no game, never has been ... and you can't pass your time telling everyone "well you see I've got ptsd because ... blah blah blah"

You will meet some people who will have compassion, and this Earth has it's lot of nerds who don't grow up. Wish there was something I could do or offer a solution to your problem, but I don't ... just a big hug ((((((JB))))))

 

[Jade-]

At one of the jobs I had , a co-worker spent a majority of her time thinking of ways to startle me. She thought it was hilarious to watch me jump and scream.

I hated that bitch....even though she obviously thought it was just harmless fun. I dreaded going to work, I hated how long it took me to calm back down, I hated the way she laughed while I was gasping for air.I asked her numerous times to stop....got pissed at her many times and yelled at her....but she still continued.

I ended up quitting that job. Some people are just so idiotic.

 

[Reclusive]

Jadebear - I feel for you so much. I had an 'episode' yesterday and wasn't just jumping and screaming but ducking and covering, too. I have a drinking fountain for my cats and it makes a noise when it's low and I literally curled up in a ball, head to knees, and covered my head the instant it started making noise. My poor fiance had the worse time trying to get me to uncurl. I hate it so much.

My dare today, since I had my episode yesterday, is to get through today without freaking out - and we're supposed to go to my fiance's dad's place today, so it's gonna be a challenge.

 

[The Albatross]

Some dares for me would be:

1. Managing the PTSD stress/anxiety without lapsing on abstinance from booze.

2. Being able to look in the mirror and love and accept myself as I am (a spin off from the scar thread, I have one under my left eye still).

3. Being able to restore sexual intimacy with my spouse (we both have low libido, and are sober alcoholics, but my PTSD tripped during an event when he had been drinking and I do not have a big sense of safety with my partner).

4. Being able to move forward with some confidence and less daily stress/fear.

 

[intothelight]

I am not going to beat myself up.

 

[Froggie]

I ended up quitting that job. Some people are just so idiotic.

{{{{{JB}}}}} that is awful to have to quit a job because of one person.