Broken_Girl0430
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Hi All.
I am a victim of Sexual Assault from a Gas Station Employee back in 2009. The gas station is on the street I lived on with my parents and brothers, I've known this person since I was about 15.
I was about 21 at the time of my assault and things have never been the same. I won't go into specifics with what happened just yet because it's still hard for me to just open up about it. My family and loved ones don't like talking about it and I get looked at like a debbie downer when I do. I was married at the time and the assault ruined my marriage. I am now divorced. I lost my job due to a mental breakdown, Had stress seizures for months associated with being assaulted, and have great anxiety issues ( they come out when it's trial time or when I have to go pump gas.)
There's a hole inside of me that I can't fix. I've tried therapy. Cognitive Behavior Therapy made me , i feel, even more anxious and nervous. It messed me up.
I know this is just an introduction board but I am tired of feeling alone and want to know if it's normal to not even want to think about it or talk about it. I know therapy is what is recommended but I am tired of talking about it. It's ruined enough.
I am a victim of Sexual Assault from a Gas Station Employee back in 2009. The gas station is on the street I lived on with my parents and brothers, I've known this person since I was about 15.
I was about 21 at the time of my assault and things have never been the same. I won't go into specifics with what happened just yet because it's still hard for me to just open up about it. My family and loved ones don't like talking about it and I get looked at like a debbie downer when I do. I was married at the time and the assault ruined my marriage. I am now divorced. I lost my job due to a mental breakdown, Had stress seizures for months associated with being assaulted, and have great anxiety issues ( they come out when it's trial time or when I have to go pump gas.)
There's a hole inside of me that I can't fix. I've tried therapy. Cognitive Behavior Therapy made me , i feel, even more anxious and nervous. It messed me up.
I know this is just an introduction board but I am tired of feeling alone and want to know if it's normal to not even want to think about it or talk about it. I know therapy is what is recommended but I am tired of talking about it. It's ruined enough.
