PTSD Symptoms You Are Dealing With Now

[Jade-]

Right now i'm trying my best to not just completely freak out. I'm not having a good day at all. These flashbacks are making me feel sick and I'm even having cold chills with them.

 

[Jade-]

OK, flashbacks have stopped for now. Right now I'm working on slowing my breathing back down and clearing my foggy feeling head.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I don't have flashbacks to often. But I think about stuff a lot. Right now I don't want to sleep. I'm afraid to. I'm depressed and restless. I know the foggy feeling...I feel that way all the time. Like right now.
I'm trying to read a book, to keep my mind off everything, is a good book. But it's still there messing up my book and wasting the 8 dollars I spent.

I feel; Guilty, frustrated, worthless, scared, stupid, foggy.

It's moments like this I just want to cry. I can't cry I never cry. My husband told me he loved me and I felt almost nothing. Not that I don't love him...I'm so emotionless. Does anyone else get that?

I want my life back.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Trembling too. And not knowing if you are trembling because you are cold...or just scared.

 

[dharmaBum]

1. Flashbacks, avoidance, adrenaline/fear over many things in life, in a day.
2. Major repetitive, intrusive thoughts and memories.
Today: A) that I should have done more (at age 16) to get the pedophile who assaulted me for five years locked up for good so he couldn't hurt more children.
B) that his recent investigation probably wasn't thorough enough and that I should do more now to have him held accountable for all of his crimes
3. Triggers, triggers, triggers! Today: my four year old daughter in a bathing suit and how similar her build is to the sought after, "top models" of the fashion and entertainment industries. The recognition that part of that image represents the exploitation of the helpless young female, the sexualization of the helpless young female- a circuit then to earlier abuse memories
4. Difficult time motivating myself to follow through on non-trauma related tasks in my life

 

[WildWitch]

Right now I just want to forget that I even have it. I wish I felt normal. If that makes sense.

 

[curiouser]

Resistance to change, limiting beliefs, avoidance, and fears, but I'm working on it.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Right now my therapy assignments are to stay grounded, as I have recently had an increase in derealization symptoms, and to recognize that I am not living in the present when triggered by perceived abandonment.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

I just took a study. They asked questions about PTSD and wanted me to write the worst experience. I did...but I keep getting distracted. I keep trying to justify why i did this or that. I've never been one who just cry's, sadly I'm a hold-it-in person. So feel really crappy right now. The worst I have felt in a few months. And I can't even cry about it....

 

[Jade-]

Right now I feel like a worthless piece of shit.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

oh jadebear...you are not worthless

 

[Jade-]

Thanks Ayesha.....I'm grateful those thoughts/feelings have passed and I don't feel that way anymore.