purging .// can't handle this

[RainbowSearchParty]

Just as it sounds.. Rough night and then throwing up until I wet myself from the lack of control

Showered and going to bed now, but terrified because last night I woke up snoring, which clearly means I'm goin to die in my seep.

I don't know how to handle nights like this.

Okay, edited to add: I’m totally okay. Just overwlemed and need of sleep. I’m okay, j promise.

 

[arfie]

good update, rainbow. sleep deprivation takes us bizarre places.

for what it's worth
snoring runs so deep in my family, both my birth family and the family i gave birth to, that none of us can sleep without the sound of snoring to provide our nightly white nose. long lives run in my family, as well. to me, i feel snoring as more social faux pas than health threat.

 

[RainbowSearchParty]

I’m okay. Just ashamed by the existence of this thread. And startled, as usual, by how fast I can go from totally okay to overwhelmed and spiraling out.

 

[arfie]

may i suggest a bit of reframing?

when i feel shamed by the existence of my verbal vomit and the mood swings attached, i try to see the shame as the relief of getting all those toxins out of my system. rinse foul taste from mouth and just breathe. hope healing happens here.

vent on, good buddy. it helps often enough to be worth a twirl.

 

[Muttly]

I understand feeling the shame, but if someone else made this thread how would you judge them? Would you be able to show compassion? If so, try to remember you are the same as all of us. You make mistakes. You struggle. You are worthwhile. You can learn and grow.

 

[Friday]

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^^^ This helps me.