Recreational Drugs

[viciomaal]

Hello everyone, this is my first post here, so I hope I'm doing everything right!

I'm Lucy, I'm 22 and I've been diagnosed with PTSD after being ill (and feeling horrible) for many months. I am now medicated with SSRIs

For my problem (a kind of vertigo, dizziness and nausea similar to Meniere’s) and I'm doing better.

That is until I trigger myself like the idiot I am… I don’t drink anymore and I had only ‘tried’ drugs once or twice because everything makes me dizzy and reminds me of my symptoms, but last night I apparently thought it would be a great idea to smoke some weed with friends (bright one, me). As soon as I started feeling the effects I knew I had made a bad decision. I was extremely anxious by the way I felt but I was able to keep it together until I got home and went to bed. I though I’d feel better after the effects wore off, since I didn't really smoke more than a little, but I woke up really early in a mild panic attack. I am now in fear that I have
triggered my symptoms or affected my medication by smoking.

Reading this I really want to smack me in the face for doing this to myself, but I though I’d better come here and talk to you guys. Do you think it's my PTSD or am I right to think I might have screwed up? I can’t really tell anymore.

Thank you

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[scott_1971_h]

I have similar reactions to the same drug. You're not alone. I have several friends who can't tolerate it either.
I hate it.
Scott

 

[heidi]

Yeah, I used to be really bad at that drug. I found it very anxiety inducing. In the end though you will be okay. It's not the worst drug and once is not going to harm you. Hopefully you're feeling calmer already?

 

[Philippa]

I'd be more concerned about the way you speak to yourself. It's hard to not be hard on ourselves, but I think it's important to start choosing the words we use to describe ourselves more deliberately. Beating yourself up for one little mistake is probably more harmful to you than the weed was.

 

[viciomaal]

I am feeling better already, thank you :) I guess I just made a mistake. I've decided that I will keep away from anything not prescribed from now on. It's just not worth it. Let's hope that I don't get triggered that often anymore!

Philippa, you are right; my therapist often tells me that I'm too harsh on myself, but I'm working on it. Thank you!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

HI, I'm glad you are feeling better. Looks like you are going to be ok. An error in judgement.
smoking alittle pot can't really hurt you.

Where as being so hard on yourself can. I am glad that it is all over for you. Please be gentle with yourself.

 

[mamachick]

I dont usually do that but was having such physical pain and anxiety a couple of weeks ago that I did while taking a hot bath. I got out of the tub and had something that was like a seizure. I knew I was going down so sat but it felt like I got electricuted before I came back. Dont know how long it lasted but just felt confused and exhausted afterwards. Will never try that again.

 

[ericaboo]

Used to love weed - now it makes me super anxious and miserable.

Once it wears off, I'm fine though - that's just my personal experience. I don't think it's a permanent thing at all.

(I've been boneheaded and tried it again a few times lately.)

I think I'm going back to the fully clean and sober ericaboo - seems to be the right answer for me.

 

[AngelaMarie]

Weed doesn't affect me that way. However, I am not on an SSRI.

What triggers me is alcohol. I have to completely stay away from it now.

I have heard a lot of people have problem with weed, so you are not alone!! Don't be too hard on yourself. You did it and you learned. That's what is important!:)

 

[Philippa]

I need to take my own advice again, and be gentle on myself. I was beating myself up something fierce the other morning.

On the weekend I indulged in some things I haven't taken in a long time, and I really paid for it the next morning. I'm with ericaboo...going back to being totally clean sounds good to me.

 

[AngelaMarie]

(((Philippa))) (((ericaboo))) (((All of us))) We are human and make mistakes. The hardest part is not beating ourselves up on it!!

 

[^^FlyingSolo^^]

I was wondering recently if pot would help my symptoms. I stopped smoking it years ago. I had a
couple bad experiences with really strong pot, other than that smoked it for years with no problems. I guess it won't be legal in my state until next year. I might try it again when it becomes legal (i.e. for medical use) here.

last night I apparently thought it would be a great idea to smoke some weed with friends

Viciomaal,

Hope you watch out for peer pressure, and put yourself and your health first. :tup: The upside to that experience is now you have a renewed respect for what substances you mix with your prescriptions. We learn as we go along. Try to be kind to yourself ok. :)