With recent studies about dreaming, nightmares and flashbacks when sleeping, we are often our own worst enemies, as our brains will create our own stories, renact an actual event, or change a real event to mix with our own scenarios.
This is normal with PTSD in a uncontrolled state. Dreaming of trauma is often a sign that your mind nor body has actually processed the trauma as yet, and trauma therapy still needs work so you become at one with your trauma, and no longer trying to reject it or deny it as such.
When we sleep, studies show that we can actually change what we dream about, before we even go to sleep. This means, that if your thinking about an event before you go to sleep, and thinking about the different scenarios the event could have taken, chances are, your going to dream about it and the scenarios in a much worse state.
Saying this, you can also change your dreams in a positive light, where if your thinking about an event that occured, you can also think about positive outcomes whilst your going off to sleep, and if you dream about that event, your brain has stored the positive events as most recent, thus will use these events within your dream, and provide a much more pleasant dream and scenarios, compared to the harsh ones we often portray and have endured.
This type of application though needs to be used in conjunction with a doctor within this area though, as it can have detrimental effects if used wrong, in that you can begin to create scenarios so terrible, you think they actually did happen to you, because the mind believes them.
RD, what this jumps out as, is that you need to start trauma therapy, and get all this trauma out of you, with no secrets left, no little pieces of the puzzle left, no stone unturned, until such a point where your sick of hearing or reading about the events, you just no longer are affected by them. Trauma therapy is harsh, it does hurt, it does cause significant effects afterwards, but then suddenly it is like the weight of the world has been released from you.
