Reeling from events

[WinnieThePoohChris]

Don't really remember writing last post.

Want to remember more but can't.

 

[WinnieThePoohChris]

Sorry if I've overstepped with anyone.

 

[WinnieThePoohChris]

So if I've done wrong I'm sorry.

If you think I've done something and i dont fully agree, if you think I have agreed or you know, you probably dont, "I" probably haven't, actually talk to "me" about it so can both get to a place of healing.

If you think you know me, what I have been through, who I am, you dont, especially if certain people are involved.

If you really want to know what I have been through, how I am feeling and more, talk openly to me.

If you're just out to cause pain and suffering, justify yourself, your actions and more... well, you will take what you want from my words, but maybe what i say will get through to some people.

This won't mean much to many but will to a few.

 

[WinnieThePoohChris]

@Friday

You gave advice to someone else here and I applied it to a situation in my life. Wanted to say thank you. Thank you!

 

[WinnieThePoohChris]

So... found out things happened before I came across certain people and certain events. Family harassed and attacked in my childhood and before. Family stalked, assualted, harassed before I was ever accused of anything. I was assualted before i ever did anything to anyone and did not do what I know I have been accused of. Someone, family member I've never met or not known did something I did not know about. Who else?

I was told once the problem is i can see events for what they are where others dont, starting to understand that more than ever now. Someone else's words, "not everything is what it appears", more people need to take that in. Plus bugs in the matrix.

 

[WinnieThePoohChris]

Do know how that sounds. Be nice if I was completely and utterly wrong. Trying to connect dots. Some connect well, some not.

People complaining of having a ghost when actual physical things happen and have happened for 20 years, possessions, items moved, changed, altered. Don't believe in ghosts so someone had to actually do these things, when these are stories multiple people tell, when the only people present were a mum and children...

Multiple children complaining about a man standing over them in their sleep, stinking of cigarettes and alcohol, taking their posessions.

Sober, clear headed adults complaining about clothes left out the night before disappearing. Signs that someone was actually present.

That's not right, that's pretty f*cked up. Might see more than there is due to my own issues, well aware of that, but chance of children and others at risk.....

 

[WinnieThePoohChris]

did not do what I know I have been accused of

Referring to a couple of very specific things

 

[WinnieThePoohChris]

Looking through a window into someone's life doesn't mean we really know them or what they're dealing with. Realise we just get glimpses on here that paint a picture, so much more to people than we can ever know.

 

[WinnieThePoohChris]

Its all human... my post on here can be.... to see another post referring to similar shortly after. I get it, didn't like it, but I understand it, something for me to work on.

Be nice if it was just me, some people in my life have problems they hide well, some others choose to ignore. Easier to stress me, trigger me, obscure details and more. Even people I wouldn't think are still in my life are and causing problems.

Trying to deal with my problems, injuries and more. Hell someone whacks you in the head with a big piece of wood then interfers with medical treatment....

Aware of what many problems are but following advice of people clearly being rude, dismissive, ignoring facts and personal choice.... many here have had similar with therapists. This "team" i have dealt with, I have no polite words...

 

[Ecdysis]

Hey Chris,
I see you often referencing other people's posts.
I wonder whether you're imagining that they refer to you?
Because we're all writing about the same issues here, it often seems like we "cross post" about certain things with each other, that are utterly unrelated.
Happened to me the other day. I wrote in my diary about being triggered by ppl's psychosis symptoms and like 10 mins later, someone posts about their psychosis symptoms, which I replied to (hopefully kindly, hopefully helpfully).
The 2 things were utterly, utterly unrelated tho and pure coincidence.
If you think someone's post is about you, the best thing to do is to simply ask.

 

[WinnieThePoohChris]

Easier said than done sometimes.
Was it?

Not all coincidences are coincidences, not all psychosis symptoms are psychosis.

No I dont think they refer to me, a couple may in relation to my posts, some I refer to as I find them helpful or informative.

 

[WinnieThePoohChris]

There are new people that post on here, that are there to bully, abuse and more. Parts of my life being rephrased, remade with abusive opinions, bad attitudes that others have tried to make me accept or make out I have. Some words and phrases taken verbatim... doesn't mean its me or how I think and feel though. Something out of context, lacking context, without intent or meaning....

I see it all as a learning experience, not very nice and more a reflection on them than anything else.

There have been comments on things I have experienced and been through, even described in some posts so...